Life goes on

Chapter 4

Friday I had a good day practice went well and then when I got out of school my car was egged again so I went to the car wash again. I went home and did my homework then I got a text from Josh "hey steph change of plans can we go out tonight, if so meet me outside of the field house at school 7:30"

"Ok I'll see you there"

Gosh I couldn't wait to actually go out on a date with Josh Rogers, I'd been waiting for this moment since 7th grade. I curled my hair, did a natural makeup look and put on my red skater skirt, black t-shirt, and my sneaker wedges. It was a twenty minute drive to school so I walked to my car and got in, I looked down and my arm, crap my scars I thought to my self I looked in the backseat and there was my black cardigan so I put it on and started to drive to school I got there at 7:29 and there was a envelope on the door so I opened it and pulled out the paper "steph I'm inside the gym just come in" so I opened the door and there was a trail of what looked like sunflower petals then I walked into the pitch black gym "hellooo" I said "josh where are you" just then I stepped on something and the lights turned on and a skunk sprayed me in the face and josh and the girls that had been bullying me came out with a camera and they were laughing at me then Ashlyn said "ghad you actually thought he was into you, you brat" at this point I was crying from the skunk spray an the embarrassment. So I ran out into the hall an ran to the bathroom to wash my face so I could at least see. Then I ran to my car and sped away I went home and put warm water in my bathtub with lavender bath salts then I grabbed all the tomatoes in the house after soaking in the lavender for half an hour I drained the water and ran the hot water again only this time I was squeezing tomatoes all over my body and I soaked my clothes in my special soap. Ugh I can't believe this happened to me. After I didn't smell like skunk anymore I pulled out a box once used for mousetraps from under the sink. In the box I had razor blades I pulled one out and extended my forearm over the sink I took the blade and put pressure on my arm then drug the blade over the same spot a few times. I did that 3 or 4 more times then I got out gauze and tape. I wrapped my arm and went to bed crying.

Hey guys so I know I haven't updated in forever and I'm sorry. I've been going through a but of a rough patch but I'm gettin back on it. So if you like the story comment, vote, or whatever :)