Once again

Chapter 2

As I lay in bed I was dreading every second of it. How much longer do I have until Kyle brings up the recent events? What will he do? How will he treat me?

I curl up and faced the wall opposite where Kyle was standing. I didn't want him to see me fight back tears. I hear the floor creak. I pull myself closer and hugged the blanket tight to my chest. He sat down and the bed sunk in slightly. I tried to move my mind elsewhere but it stayed right here with Kyle.

I suddenly felt his warm hand graze my arm. I jumped slightly at his touch. "Please, don't be afraid Avery," his voice was gentle and sincere. "You scared me today Avery. I don't want anything to happen to you. I love you and would do anything for you to stay mine." I felt a sting in my heart. It hurt everytime he said that. I love Kyle with all my heart but sometimes he could be very hurtful. "Please don't ignore me Avery. I want to hear your voice again. I miss you."

"I'm sorry Kyle." It came out a whisper, a whisper filled with fear, sorrow, and truth.

At this point I was still facing the opposite wall. Kyle gently ran his fingers through my hair. "Avery, please look at me. I want to see your beautiful face. Please?" I laid there for a moment debating if I should give in to him or not. Kyle sighed again.

"Ave..." I slowly sat up and turned toward him, my head facing down. He delicately raised my chin to meet him. He brushed his hand down my bruised cheek and I forced myself to look at him.

He tilted his head a little and gave me a real genuine smile then said, "There we go." In return I gave him the very smallest smile I could conjure up. He frowned. "Aw come on baby, you can do better than that." He was being... playful..?

But before I could manage to give him the smile he wanted my heart sank and my face dropped. For I knew Kyle well enough that this was just a show, an act to make me want to stay with him. This isn't anything new for us. When Kyle hits me, those nights are always the most predictable. It's either a fight about the beating or he's genuinely nice and sorry for what he did.

Kyle fears that one day I'm going to leave him. I love Kyle and would never be able to leave him. I understand why he does what he does. I'm a bad person and when a person is bad they get punished.

He looked confused."Baby, what's wrong?" I couldn't seem to find my words. All I could come up with was a shaky "I'm sorry" a few tears trickled down my face and kyle instantaneously pulled me into a tight warm embrace.

This time I did react. I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face in his chest to cry. He rubbed my back to try and calm me, while comforting me in any way he could.

He softly whispered in my ear, "There is nothing you need to he sorry for, Avery," I buried my face deeper into his chest and pouted out all my feelings into each tear drop that fell. Kyle pulled away. He looked down at me and lifted my chin so our eyes would connect.

He gently wiped away the stale tears lingering on my cheeks. He took his left hand and placed it carefully on my cheek. He took his other hand and ran the pads of his fingers gently across my soft lips. He then brushed his hand down my chest and around to my back. He pulled me close, closer than we've been in a long time.

He slowly brought his face to mine. His vibrant green eyes gazed into mine. I have longed to feel his touch for months now. He smirked causing me to smile then bite my lip seductively. I wrapped my arms behind his neck as his lips came crashing into mine.

I pulled my arms around and placed my hands on his chest. He pulled away slowly letting the kiss linger on my lips. He looked and me smiling and gave gave his signature wink which caused me to giggle. I looked down at my hands playing with his shirt. He placed his hands on mine. "What's on your mind baby?"

       "Oh, nothing," I said simply

       "Come on Ave, I know you well enough to know when some things off. Just tell me."

I stared I to his eyes and said, "I miss this." I truly did miss what we once had years ago. He drew in a deep breath and sighed.

"Baby..." I was afraid of how he might react.

"So do I. And it's gone because of me," I could hear all the sadness in his voice.

"Kyle it's my fault don't-"

"No!" He snapped "None of this is your fault. Don't you ever blame yourself again. Do you understand me?"

"Yes," My voice was quiet and afraid. I hate it when he yells.

"I blamed you for it all," he pause. I could he was trying not to cry. "I just needed to try and escape the reality of what happened. I'm so sorry Avery." I didn't know what to say. I was at a complete loss of words.

Kyle has never apologized for what had happened and he certainly never took responsibility. "I am a despicable human being for what I have done to you. This..." he placed his hand on top of my newest bruise. I placed my hand on top of his and shut my eyes, holing back tears.

"This is uneceptable. I am the worst kind of person out there. The kind of man that takes his rage out on his girlfriend. I am no man. I'm am coward. I'm so sorry Avery. I know saying sorry isn't going to take away all the years of pain I have brought upon you but I will show you. I will change. I promise you that." My lips trembled as I fought back tears

"I love you" he finished

I was in shock by his speach. Was he being honest? Is this really all over? Am I going to get the boy I fell in love with back? I was speach less, until finally I said "I love you too"

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