Quick take a breath before I dive back in. Sudden rush, but I'm addicted to the pain I'm living in. Never stop until it's too late.
They tell me I must be insane to keep going back to that which causes me pain, but they don't get it. They don't understand, they don't know me the way all of my heart breaks have gotten to know my mind.
Sudden rush, falling down heart starts to break again. I'm addicted to a certain kind of pain, I'm in love with my heartaches and the people who cause them.
Can't seem to get off this ride, they tell me this is self destruction, but I swear I'm doing fine. I'm in control, I have power, I have the ability to stop I promise, I swear, I'm lost.
Breakdown, pitch black, fade to nothingness, feel the numbness creeping back in. In love with my heartache, but got used to the pain.
It always ends the same. Numb.
