Truth Be Told

Diary entry #1

Diary entry #1

Dear harry,

He was amazing. He made me feel amazing. Together we were amazing. But then the unthinkable happened...............we lost each other amongst the talk the need and the dreams we lost all that mattered to us, each other. It felt like he didn't miss me at all until I was over him then he came running back, but not telling me. He talked to my friend for hours about how he still liked me, making me second guess, putting up a wall to block everyone from my emotions. I thought it only happened in movies or those Teen Quotes where the boy only realizes what he lost after the girl has moved on but I was wrong it does happen in real life. I guess I wanted him so bad I shut him out, away from my heart because like a thief he would steal it as he always has but not this time, this time I'm keeping it far away from him he's not taking it now. Although my heart wants to go my brain isn't letting him even see my heart.

Right when I was ready, ready to fall back into his arms, as I had the sledge hammer ready to knock down the only thing stoping me from falling he changed.... A simple question that I had ask, nothing major just a query about whether or not he was going to a social was turned into him and I suddenly arguing. He got uptight and said things I hope he didn't mean, all I said was 'sorry' cause i didn't want to cause something bad to happen he replied with 'sheesh!' At that point I said goodnight as I was gonna get some sleep cause I didn't want to fight, but it was a lie ........ A quote once read 'if you fell like crying look up at the stars' ya know to stop the tears from rolling down...... Well that night guess I must have counted the stars. I didn't sleep that night to worried about what I had don to him. It was then that I decided I had to let go. I made a packed to myself that enough is enough there would be no more casual messages to him if he wanted to talk to me he could any time but I wasn't going to waste anymore tears on his stupid arguments. All I can say is its hard not to talk to the only person that you want to talk to.

I guess what really hurt was when he started to forget about me and move on. I watched him stare at other girls and it felt like I was being stabbed time and time again, but I had to live with it cause I just couldn't see us together. It sucked to say but there was no more, us.

It hurts so bad when the one that's hurting you is the one you want to run to and hug and never let go, but he didn't feel the same, or did he?

I guess I will never know.........

Sincerely the one you've never met xoxo

A/N hey guys so I'm new to this whole writing thing so please excuse they grammar and spelling mistakes. Please at least one vote and I will write more i just wanna know SOMEONE'S reading these xxxx thanx laff yah!