Loved To Insanity (Ticci Toby X Clockwork)

The Voices In my Head

He wasn't there. Kill him. Kill him. He didn't care. Kill him. 

The voices in my head are chanting at me as I stand behind my father who is taking a smoke.

"I'm not killing ANYONE. It's all in my head." I think. 

Kill him. Kill him. He wasn't there. He wasn't there. He doesn't care. Kill him.

I caved in. I feel like I'm going insane. I sneak to the knife drawer and grab the biggest and sharpest knife I could find. I sneak up behind him and stab his shoulder as hard as I can. He falls and I get on top of him. "TOBY! TOBY WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? GET OFF OF ME YOU LITTLE F****ER!!" He yells at me and struggles. I grab the handle of the knife and dig it around inside his shoulder. He screams. I then pull the knife out and stab him in the face. Dead. It felt..... good. To kill.... to see the light leave their eyes. I turn around and my mother is standing there with a look of terror on her face. "T-To-Toby, w-why did you d-do t-that?" I'm twitching uncontrollably. I stand up and bolt into the garage. I grab a part of something and slide it over my mouth. I grab a pair of yellow work goggles and slide them on. I also grab two hatchets, a bottle of car fuel, and matches. I run into the forest and as I go, I pour the bottle of fuel around. As I spill the last drops, I grab the matches. I felt doing this would help me escape this.... meaningless world. I strike a match and bring it down on the fuel. As the flames pop up, I see the most beautiful girl run past. Then I black out.

Toby, my child. Your life is just beginning. Get up. 

The wind was somehow speaking to me, but I did as it asked. I suddenly see the thing that I've seen before. He was a very tall, white man with a black suit on, but he had no eyes, no nose, no mouth. He also had these black tendrils coming out of his back.

Toby, come child. You have work that has to be done. 

He was right. That, was just the beginning.