His Hugs

Are you avoiding me?

-Taehyung's pov-

Hyejin was weird today. Every time I tried to talk to her she would ignore me. Maybe I pushed it to far this moring. I didn't mean to, it's just everything happened so fast. She kept cutting me off. I wanted to show her around but I had to finish that song. I kept one of her papers and read over it.

After what happened I had to go before my heart exploded. I didn't know what the feeling was but it was strong. Everytime I saw her my heart would skip a beat. Anyways I went to the auditorium and sang her lyrics.

It didn't fit anywhere but the chorus. I didn't mind because I felt like she was talking about us when we were little. I started writing random lyrics and found a few that would fit the first verse to the chorus.

The bell rang and I hurried and picked up my things and rushed to class. When I got there Hyejin wasn't even there yet. A few girls shrieked as I walked by. I went over to my desk and sat down.

She walked in and sat down. I didn't pay any attention to her because if she was going to ignore me I was going to ignore her too. After a few minutes class started I couldn't take it. I stole glances at her every once in awhile. She noticed but didn't look at me.

Mrs. Jung assigned us partners for the next assignment. She assigned us seat partners. As soon as she left the room everyone started chatting except us two.

"So...um...any ideas?" I asked trying to break the awkwardness. She just shook her head and avoided eye contact. My heart started aching. It hurt so much that I couldn't handle it.

"Yah Hyejin." I said. She turned to me and stared at me. "Yeah?" She asked.

"Are you avoiding me." I asked staring back. She didn't say anything, instead she left my gaze again. Mrs. Jung came in and I had to clear this up. I couldn't control myself. I stood up and everyone's eyes focused on me.

"Mr. Kim please take your seat." Mrs. Jung said.

I ignored her and stared at Hyejin who was still avoiding eye contact. I grabbed her by the wrist and pulled her out of class.

"Taehyung let go of me. You're hurting me. Where are we going?" She said struggling.

I ignored her this time. I tightened my grip on her but my heart ached to much from her. We were on the roof when I let her go. She tumbled a little then turned and faced me.

"Yah! If I don't get a good grade in school then my pare-" she started but I grabbed her and kissed her. Her eyes widened then I pushed myself off of her.

"Just shut up for once Hyejin! Listen to what I have to say." I said. She gulped and nodded.

"Are you avoiding me? You know how much it hurts? Do you know how much my heart ached every time you ignored me? Do you know how much you hurt me just today? Don't you know how heavy my heart is right now? Do you understand how much pain you've cause me?" I said in frustration. I ruffled my hair then looked straight towards her.

"I know I hurt you. I know how much pain I've caused you today. I ignored you for a reason but it's stupid and you wouldn't understand. You'd think I was like every other girl who's fell for you. That's why I avoided you. I couldn't let myself fall for you, I couldn't control my heart. My mind said no but my heart said yes. You weren't the only one who was hurting! It was hurting me knowing that I fell for someone who was supposed to be my best friend only." She replied as tears rolled down her eyes.

I pulled her in and hugged her tightly. I could her her cry softly. After a long moment she wrapped her arms around my waist. I flinched at first then smiled.

We pulled away and she blushed slightly. "We're still best friends right?" I asked making her laugh. I could hear my heart beating. Why did I have to fall for her? Why was it so hard to find happiness?

Ever since I joined BTS, I made a promise to not get involved in drama or fall in love. BTS was my happiness but something was alway missing. I couldn't find happiness anywhere except for them. I thought I had everything, but I was always missing something.

I've always kept it a secret from everyone. I push people away, the one's who help me I push away. But Hyejin was different. I let her come back into my world.

Now I realize that ever since I moved here and left Hyejin, my life was boring. No excitement, no one to bother, no one to bully. And when I left I felt like I left all my happiness with her to hold.

Hyejin broke the silence and said, "I'm sorry for avoiding you Taehyung."

"Yah what happened to Tae oppa~!" I said back pouting.

She laughed and then stood up. She started walking away but I caught up to her, "Where are you going?" I asked.

"Back to class. I have to get my grades remember?" She said then flicked my head. "Oh and Tae I don't think I can hang around you anymore...I'm sorry. You can do the assignment without me, I'm sorry Tae."

"Don't call me Tae anymore...." I don't know what was going on. We were just fine a few seconds ago! Mixed feelings were growing. I just got so angry all of a sudden. Everything was happening so fast again. I couldn't help but be mad at her. Once again there she left with my happiness in her hand.

A tear escaped my eye as she walked away. Once again she was going to avoid me. I don't think I could live like this. "Hyejin-ah...wae? Why are you doing this?"