Day 1:
I cried so hard it scared my father; he spent the night outside my bedroom door just to make sure I didn't stop breathing like a newborn in her crib for the first week
Day 2:
I went to work and cried in the bathroom
Day 3:
I believed I was cured, now I think my mind was playing a cruel joke on me
Day 4:
I told you I missed you and you replied with "thank you"
Day 5:
I saw a picture of you on Instagram and it lit my throat on fire so I burned your love letters over the flame
Day 6:
I smoked weed with a boy on his back porch and he asked questions you were afraid of but still I couldn't kiss him on his couch
Day 7:
I couldn't sleep because I kept dreaming of you kissing other girls on your couch
Day 8:
I gave you all of your stuff back and you thought I looked like a warrior but really I went home and cried an entire ocean into existence
Day 9:
I laughed without you
Day 10:
I kept finding excuses to text you and you kept ignoring me
Day 11:
I cried until my stomach heaved itself up and I slept next to the toilet in case those nasty dreams came again
Day 12:
Since when is heartbreak so goddam romantic? There is nothing pretty about losing feeling in my knuckles after squeezing my hands so tight to stop me from texting you
Day 13:
I could never squeeze them tight enough; I could never imagined that you would be so good at letting me fade
Day 14:
The doubt makes my spine feel less like vertebrae and more like a giant icicle (you never loved me)
Day 15:
I found out you had replaced me and it flicked at my bruises but my ribs didn't brake
Day 16:
I told everyone about you and they said you were stupid for leaving but I think you were stupid for staying the first time you sliced my heart on the side of the road
Day 17:
I didn't think about you for an entire night because I was drunk in bed with someone else
Day 18:
What colour are your eyes?
How big are your hands?
Where was the freckle on your face I used to look at while you slept?
Day 19:
Sometimes all I feel in my chest is my heart trying to break out of its cage I think it's tried of everything I put it trough
Day 20:
I'm sorry I couldn't ignore your birthday; I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
