Night Changes

thirty-nine

(09:01 am)

I can see you
down in the parking lot
looking so scared and unsure
waiting for my mum to get out of the car
so you don't have to walk alone into this scary
                                                                                              building

I don't blame you
I felt the same way
the first time I arrived
there is just something

very intimidating about
this big white piece of block
that I am living in for the time
                                                    being

Well I hope you think I look nice
I got, the dress on mum got for me
last month.

and I was aloud
to put a little bit
of make-up on
so I wouldn't
look so tired

I see you walk
Your eyes
looking up
at the sky
for a little while

I can't wait to see you
hold your hand again
touch your skin again
and feel you heartbeat
I missed you so much