"Insomnia strikes again" I thought sarcastically as I walked down Cranston Rd. towards the famous orange bridge as I often did when I couldn't sleep. It could have been worse. There are definitely worse spots to live nearby and have for walking options. Anyway, it was around 1 in the morning when I reached the bridge. I was about a fourth of the way across when I saw him:
A boy, about my age, standing on the other side of the rail. He had straight blonde hair with bangs that just covered his eyes. He was wearing black skinny jeans and a black t-shirt.
I walked cautiously towards him, not getting too close, not wanting him to get startled and jump. I knew exactly what he was doing. My best friend Julia had done it 5 months ago...
"Hey there." I said. The boy turned around best he could, his arms bent awkwardly to hold on to the rail.
"Don't!" He called. "Don't come any closer."
"Alright." I said. Is it all right if I go here?" Without getting any closer to him, I walked to the railing and leaned against it, looking out over the bay.
"Well I can't stop you." The boy said.
"But you better not try and stop me!"
"Ok." I say. "Can we talk? Do you have a name?"
The boy seemed to think about it for a minute, as if telling his name would cause some disaster. Then, "Nathan" he replied.
"Hi Nathan." I said. "My name's Kaitlin." He didn't say anything.
"What are you doing here, Nathan?"
"I'm gonna jump. What does it look like?"
"Well I see that. I meant why.""Because my life is shit. And no one really cares."
"You know what I do when my anxiety and Bipolar really get me down" I say. "I do things I enjoy to take my mind off it. Or I talk to people. It really does help. And therapy helps a lot too. Are you seeing someone?"
"I dont have anyone to talk to. Or drive me to therapy." He says."Well I'd talk to you," I say.
"Yea?" he asks, as he turns towards me more.
"Totally. And drive you to therapy. If.. if you wanted that is." I said before I could stop myself.
The boy, Nathan, turned around so he was facing the street, his arms over the railing on the safe side, his back to the water.
"Other things I do are stuff to keep me distracted. Like reading, or playing video games."
"You play video games??" he asked excitedly. "What kinds?""How about we make a deal," I said. "Come on this side and I'll tell you.
He swung just one leg over so he straddled the rail, looked right at me and said "Compromise."I laughed. "Alright. Well I've played all the standard games like Zelda, Mario, and Smash Bros. And I've played Call of Duty but I dont care for it much. My favorite game though is Zelda and this series called Kingdom Hearts."
"You play Kingdom Hearts?" He asked, life coming into his voice a little more.
"Yea!" I replied. Every single one! You too?""All but the newest one for 3DS," he said.
"Well Nathan" I said. "I have that one. I'd let you play it if you want."
"Yea?" he asked."Totally. But only if you come off that ledge."
He said nothing for a while. Then, remembering what Julia had said multiple times I said "Come on Nathan. Give life one more chance."
He stayed silent for a while longer. Then, "Alright Kaitlin," he said, swinging his other leg over to the safe side. "One more chance."
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To Save a Life
Short StoryA story told in two perspectives about mental health, friendship, and finding reasons to keep going. Dedicated to my angel; and to all those who have ever thought about jumping.