Miserable Condition

CHAPTER THREE

I stared at him curiously.

I couldn't believe myself and wonder why did he ask that? Why was he interested to know whether I had a boyfriend or not? It doesn't really concern him. Oh! Wait, why would someone ask something like if they aren't interested, did he noticed me? Does he like me? Will he ask me out? (inside my head)

"Hey!!! Are you dumb or something? Didn't you hear what I just asked? Were you even listening? Why do you always seem lost? Is there someone else you want to be with right now instead of me?" He asked without stopping his breath.

Again in spite of responding to his questions, I said "why do you make it so hard for someone to talk to you? Why did you even asked me out for lunch if you were just going to shout at me? You know what, I am not the one who seems lost; you are the one who is lost in his own world, why do you always stay away from people? Why do you always make people stay away from you as if you are a creep? It has only been a day and people doesn't like you, isn't that a sad thing? How are you going to live the next two years in school like that? Do you have friends from your previous school? Did you even make friends there?" I took a long breath.

He seems annoyed by the respond but he finally spoke out after a minute, "Yeah, it's been only a day, why should I tell you about my personal life? It's not like you're going to be my girlfriend or anything like that."

When he mentioned "to be my girlfriend" I knew it he did try to make his move but I turned his move upside down. How could I be so stupid, I should have just responded to his question. Deep inside, I feel miserable.

"And don't you see I'm trying to be friends with you. If you don't want to be friends, it's totally fine with me. Well, for once I thought you could be a real person. I guess I was wrong about you. You're just an idiot"

"No! I didn't mean to upset you, I was just telling you for your good, you know. Yes, I am totally fine to be your friend and if you want we could be more than friends too. By the way, what do you mean by I'm not a real person and how can you say I'm an idiot when we haven't spend any time together?"

No response from him.

I really wanted to hit him hard with a hammer on his head, how could he be quiet and not answered my question? I mean like I'm a girl and at least he should have shown some respect or care towards me or any girl around him. Maybe he does not have any girl in his household that's why he's like this way. I wonder if I should ask him about this or not, if I don't ask then my mind will be in trouble thinking about all the possibilities and the answer would never be in positive way so I better ask him indirectly, I thought.

"Okay, I live with my parents and a younger sister, my house is just two blocks away from school. What about you? Do you live with your parents? Do you have any siblings?" I asked with a confident voice.

"I live with my Mom and my stepfather. My mom and dad divorced when I was just a kid. My mom remarried and my stepdad is fun and I used to get time to spend with my dad when I was in middle school but everything changed when I started going to high school. I never spend my time in my house, I want to be out anywhere but my house." He replied quietly.

I wanted to ask about his father but I knew this was not the right time. It would be awkward and he won't want to tell everything to me. I didn't want to continue with this topic and so I changed the topic immediately.

"So you're sixteen, right?"

"No, I'm seventeen, what about you?"

"I'm sixteen. Do you drink?"

"Drink? Like water and soda or...?"

"Ah! Drink like you know beer, wine, something like that!"

"Oh! You could have just asked earlier. No, I don't do stuff like that. I'm not fond with all that kind of stuff."

"Really? You don't even smoke? Seriously? Or you're just playing around?"

"Why? Can't I be honest? What about you?"

"What about me? Of course I don't do stuff like that"