Johnny pov
Raiden pov
No-one pov
So I manage to get Raiden back to his room but he won't let me leave so I stayed with him. I saw Sonya and she told me that whatever Raiden says or does he won't have memories of them so I said OK thanks and she took off. I asked Raiden who he is in love with and he told me this"I love you johnny I wanted you to be my first time but brother ruined it for me and you sorry". It shocked me he loved me ME! I told him I wasn't good for him and he started crying and ran up to me and hugged me. I felt bad and said don't worry I love you too babe. He looked up at me and unable to control myself anymore I closed the gap between us. His lips were soft and plump and when we stopped I realized that the door was still open and I went and closed it.
I'm back in the room the medication they gave me for my pains was strong in its effects when Johnny asked me who I loved I couldn't control myself like the medicine to control of my whole body and I said who I loved. He told me he wasn't good for me and the medicine took control of me and I started crying and hugged him. He said"Don't worry I love you too babe". I didn't know if he was saying this because of my state now or he really meant it so I looked up and what he did shocked me. I looked up at him and he kissed me on the lips I felt happy. He then went and closed the door He said "let's go to sleep now babe I'm tired". I said OK and when I laid down on the bed he went in front of me and hugged my body close to him and I just felt tired as well and fell asleep.
Oh man! I thought last night was dream it wasn't this is not good. Oh crap Raiden isn't here where is he? "RAIDEN"!!!! he said "over here" and he was coming out of the restroom he wore long sleeves today weird.
I remember everything from last night and I feel like johnny only did all that to make me feel better. I looked at my sink and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked down and saw some razors and I absentmindedly picked up one. I looked at my arms and absentmindedly started slashing my arms. I stopped and looked at my arms again and they were all covered in blood. I quickly realized that I can not stop myself from this new pain. I washed my arms and sink and the razor. I put on a black long sleeved shirt and Blue Jeans. I walked out of the restroom and Johnny was staring at me and I asked him "what is wrong"? He said"nothing new outfit"? "yes". He walked up to me and grabbed my hand and said "Last night was something I couldn't forget and I know you remember last night too. I wanted to tell you that I love you I loved you since I first saw you. And babe I don't know if you love me and if you don't then it's fine. I will love till the end of time". I looked at him and said that I loved him to and we stayed in each others arms and we kissed. Johnny grabbed my hand and when he pulled it the sleeve went up he saw all the self harm cuts on my arm. He started crying and I absentmindedly started to hug him he kept saying why. I told him that I couldn't live with myself knowing I could have saved myself when brother attacked me but I didn't.
Why would he do this to himself?! I started crying and hugged him and kept saying why. He told me it was because he could have stopped his brother but he couldn't he wasn't strong enough and he felt that I didn't deserve him. I told him I would always love him and that he didn't deserve me and I kissed him. I started to get back to normal and then I snapped. I pushed him to the bed and pounced on him and hunryly kissed him. I realized what I did and got off him and kept saying I'm sorry over and over again.
He never cried in front of me and I said I'm sorry and he kissed me. Then I noticed that he wasn't crying anymore but had this look that looked like brother's and he pushed me to the bed. All of a sudden he pounced on me he then started kissing me hungryly and then just went wide eyed and got off me saying I'm sorry over and over again.
That's it! Second chapter!! Sorry if it took a long time but I did it!! If you find any mistakes tell me thx!! I'm sorry for the feels it's gonna get better I promise you all bye!!
