Worth It | Baby Bella (Twilight)

Chapter 3: Starts here

Life isn't always fair, sometimes you feel strong and in one second you can feel weak, it's so easy to change from a person to another, at least that's what I always knew.

You feel lost, lost in your own little thoughts, you never know what you'll achieve, it just comes naturally to you.

You try to learn new things, at the first step that you get a no as an answer, you regret your choices and quite doing the thing you've asked for, begging and promising that you'll never leave it.

Thats what life is about, skipping everything, trying new things while having no idea what this thing is, you think you can become anything just by watching someone doing it, you challenge yourself, but when you lose, you think you're useless.

You are wrong- everyone was born for a reason, try new things, never stop, at the end stopping means losing, losing everything you tried to reach, one day you'll find the thing; the thing that was meant to be yours.

I couldn't sleep that night. Sounds of thunder and sparks through the sky filled my ears, I believed they were my parents at first, trying to tell me that they missed me, then I tried to comfort myself by mumbling that they will come back.

I knew they wouldn't, but at the same time my mind needed some comfort, my mind forced me to believe in things that aren't possible. I hugged my pillow tightly, bringing it close to my body, then started singing to myself the same song that my mom used to sing to me;

'Little baby,

Little baby,

go to sleep and see the sun,

the moon is waiting,

for my baby,

to come and see the sun.

The dreams are playing,

The sun is heating,

The moon is waiting,

for You,'

I sang and cried myself to sleep, it wasn't easy at first, but my mind couldn't hold back anymore, I was soo tired to escape sleep, so I let my body force me to blackness.

I woke up next morning, my pillow was soaked and my body was aching.

I took advantage that the sun was shining and started checking out the room.

It was a painted white with flowers of yellow and pink, It looked old and off, the roof was rusted with few tucked dust, each bed was designed to be a two-on-top-of-eachother bed, so i guessed someone was trying their best not to explode last night because of my loud screams and shouts.

I didn't want to meet anyone, I didn't want to even to try and friend someone, I was depressed and depression was better, I felt lonely- Loiner than I ever felt before, It was close to killing me from inside.

I was already dead from inside, my soul was dead, I was dead, I will eat, drink, sleep but still be dead.

It was horrible, there was a hole inside my chest that nobody can ever fill, It ached for love, ached for my parents to come and comfort it, which I had to agree, It was IMPOSSIBLE.

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