By Falling In Love And Learning Pain, We... (Kuran Kaname)

By Falling In Love...

"By falling in love and learning pain, we become human."

When I touched you, my mind wandered of to the longing of that familiar scent. The touch of a chestnut eye-colored being holding my index finger with her tiny hand. I had experienced that warmth somewhere, sometime. This time – I don't know why – I vowed to keep that warmth close to me. In the end, I think I needed it more than I believed it benefited her instead.

Watching her those ten years from the unbearable distance, a little girl growing into a young woman... No one knew why their beloved Lord holds such an interest towards a simple girl. They could not understand. The say....by falling in love and learning the pain, then do we become human.

Beasts that feast mercilessly and devour the human essence have no sense of humanity in themselves whatsoever. Once, I could never believe how we came to be. Seeing the ugliness of our world only made me realize my mistake. Yet...I couldn't bear to abandon that warmth.

How I wish she could play in this imaginary sandbox for longer. Time brought is otherwise, forcing those cold, hateful fangs upon her neck and piercing her veins...that tender, virgin skin, sensitive to touch was now being penetrated hungrily for what it had to offer. Bringing her back to this world of blood, I feared she would not survive. Being one of surprises, she managed to stand back on her feet quickly. It pained me to keep her in the dark for any longer.

She saw. She teared. She cried. She believed. She hoped.

This man who has done nothing but hurt the person he longs for the most is once again stepping into the unforgivable path. I'm sorry my love...I'm not kind, nor gentle. You will suffer again and again from my own doings, in a desperate attempt to keep you safe and sound.

"How adorable, after such aa long time, you still get this blushy."

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"I do not deserve to be kissed by you!"

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"Kill me with your own hands."

This man who says things that hurt his beloved, this man who longs the most for happiness, this man who deep inside knows their future is not covered in soft petals of rose... Humans ask themselves...why me? "Why me?". What have I done? ..."What have I done?". This man... he closes his eyes each day and dreams of the time he will able to grasp the tiniest of his happiness. As long as she is safe and sound, this light that is sure not to fade away, he finds the courage to live on, on this never-ending life of his. Once he has taken the decision, he can never go back. She will suffer. She will cry.

"Only when we learn love and know pain will be become human."

He clenches his fists and takes his final decision. She's already screaming in pain. He is unforgivable. Part of her still wants to believe in him. Upon laying her eyes on the man, turning away, her eyes give this last glisten of hope. Holding her and with tears in her eyes, she accepts to be embraced and he mutters those sinful words.

Tears run down your beautiful face...I will show you what I truly am. I will show you who you've chosen to give half of that heart of yours to. I will show you a sweet dream this night...

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"By falling in love and learning pain, we become human."

Your lips, that warmth. Your body, that warmth. That warmth of which I've dreamed of, that warmth I've vowed to protect until the very end...

They both run to this hateful room. I am laying on the cold ground with the fatal wound on my blood-embellished chest. My mission is now complete and a new era begins. He stands aback, she runs to me. With those tears in her pretty eyes, she looks at me, I cannot help but to hold her close. I signal for the silver-haired man to approach and pull him into my embrace as well. His usual stoic expression, while unchanging gives signs of lying. I hold them both close to me and recite my last wish. They deserve their happiness. A happiness I did not get to experience but that is grasped tightly in my fist. A happiness that I will hold inside of me in all of eternity.

I want you two to be together.

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"They say...only by falling in love and learning the pain do we become human."

In the sea of tears we were born in, how many times do people scream?

To stay alive...why does that simple karma bring pain instead of happiness?

"The millennium that passed...he does not remember a thing. I don't want that! Can't you understand brother? Why must he not remember?"

Those... first rays of sun were not welcoming in my eyes. Where am I? A beautiful woman is standing in front of me. Chestnut-colored eyes, rich brown hair, she seems to be crying. Someone...yes, someone is comforting her. Semi-short silver hair, a soft look plastered onto his beautiful face. "It's okay sis". I look at them. Who are they?

"Because your voice called out to me, I felt the first wish was born. Taking your hand, I chase through the endless sky, the red moonlight of June."

Sleepily, I look at them. This warmth...I swear I have experienced it somewhere before. I reach at my hands and pull them into my embrace.

"It's okay...tell me...about...the past...thousand years."