It's hard to deal with the pain in school because I know no matter when or where I graduate I won't be able to look in the crowd and see him. When a teacher/student asks me how my family is doing or how my dad's doing it's hard to explain to them that he's not here with me and he never will be. But it bothers me trying to explain it because it takes me back to that awful night and I relive it right there in school. I can usually clear my head by focusing on school work but majority of the time I just put my head down and get on the verge of running out of the classroom.
