Whenever November 6th comes bacl around it's kind of hard to treat it as a regular day..I usually go to the graveyard and just let all the pain out but now...now I feel like I can't even do that..it's like I just ball myself up in my room and stay alone..I think the depression is starting to come back..so the only thing keeping me from going into the depression again is friends and family..even writing this story is making me upset I don't know how long I can keep this up...
