I write lists sometimes
-to keep my thoughts in order
-sometimes to remember
-sometimes because I like the way it looks on paper.
I like the way the writing falls down the page
-like it's the only way it knows
-like it's a rope trying to climb
-like it's a discontinued sentence in a book
I write lists about people sometimes
-about their best features
-what makes them smile
-why I love them
Other times I write for me
-when I go shopping
-when I want more reasons
-when I'm feeling happy
I write lists when I need inspiration
-for songs and music
-for stories and poetry
-for things to do for someone I love
I write lists for no reason
-like counting the stars on the wall
-like numbering books
-like noting my favourite dresses
I write them to push myself
-counting the numbers on the scales
-the measurements of my thighs
-the calories I consume
I write to calm myself
-remembering all my friends
-forgetting all my worries
-planning beach trips and holidays
I write lists sometimes
-because my
-brain won't
-move fast
-enough
-sometimes
-because I
-can't remember
-what you
-said
-sometimes
-because
-I
-want
-to
-fill
-up
-this
-page