Diary Of A Lost Girl

Chapter 2: My Quick Come Up

WOW! I could be a bitch and do some shit , but i'm not, i'm better than that. I'ma do me cause  thats what i'm good. It's like i can't explain how i feel, you hear me bestfriend. Yes i do i couldn't understand your pain doe just know im here for you. Okay , we turned around and walk home. I went to Riya house to get my things then i went home. I walked in the house hey mom , hey how was your day? It was good i guess it could have went better. I don't tell my mom to much about my bisexual life. I walk in my room and lay my things on my bed. I realize that i have did some heart breaking things once. I  sat down and start writing in my book. 

I'm thinking about me and this boy name Bre, he was my baby. Me and Bre use to go out but this girl inbox me one day on some hip shit. Talking about she go with Bre I couldn't take it so we broke up but we was still bestfriends. I use to stay going to his house after school. The thing that piss me off the most was that the same day we broke up he went with her. I wasn't tripping doe , I saw him everyday not her.  Bre was a very cool dude i guess , he wasn't faithful doe " will not to her " . We was fucking almost day. Now i'm not gone lie it was good. Him stripping me slowly shirt first then pants. OMG! I couldn't ask for better. He rub my thigh going to my upper body. He kiss me on my neck, my stomach was full of butterflies. He start to rub my stomach and moved down. I couldn't resist my body caved in I was ready. My pussy was so wet. He would throw me on the bed and throw my legs over his shoulder and eat me out. I would pull his hair and motion his head to my spot. We do favors for favors. If you can't suck dick or eat pussy then you not ready for sex, its simple as that. ME thinking about it makes me feel so so mmmm.Those was good times me and him. The last we talk it wasn't good. I had got pregnant and was scared to tell him. He had moved on, he moved to the west got a girlfriend and even if i did wanted to tell him he had blocked me on facebook. So it had been so long since i have talked to him. I had finally made a new facebook with Riya. So i had told him, he was mad because i didn't tell him but i didn't want to make it look like I want him back cause that wasn't the case. 

I hear a knock at my room door, who is it? It's Amaris, awe come in. What you was doing? Nothing for real just thinking about all the bad and good of my last relationship. What was you doing before you got here? Nothing, you trying to smoke? Yea you got the weed or is we fanna go get it? We gotta go get it, aye you got some money? Yea. Okay , ready? Yea , did you see Riya when you was walking up here? Yea but she was getting in the car with here mama. Awe okay. Well i'm ready lets go. We walking to the door and my cousin had walked in. Hey whats up Luther , whats up y'all? Aye where y'all fanna go? Nothing fanna walk some where. Luther know I smoke but I could never tell my cousin i'm fanna kill my brain cells. We had enough money for 5 blunts plus junk food. We start walkn down the street and I see BooBoo walking. Thats his family nick name for him. His real name is James, but I like his nick name. BooBoo where you fanna go? No where , just walking. Awe okay well i'll see you later. Okay. We got the weed and then went to the store for some snacks, we saw Trey. He a striaght hoe, I can't stand him we fuck doe sad to say. Did I like it yes do I want it again hell no. Trey is no one you could be with he is what you call a mop mop. We smoked while walking, man i was fried. AYE? Dude why you yelling. I don't know, but what time is it? 8:56, awe i'm fanna go home. Okay. I'll see you tomorrow. Ight. I start walkin home, Damn its dark out here. I start viben to some music in my head " I DON'T TRUST NO ONE BUT MY GUN KUSH FUCKING UP MY LUNGS NIGGAS TALKING FROM BEHIND BITCHES TRYIN SET YOU UP " . TRINA?  Yeah who calling my name ? Me its Riya. Awe , here I come. I walked across the street, Yes bestfriend. Where you just come? With Amaris , she wanted to go home so she left. Awe, well where you fanna go? No where now i'm fanna sit here with you if thats okay. Ummm yea i just gotta get Jordan out the house. What you mean? Jordan in my house we was fucking then my momma came. HAHAHA so what you fanna do. Man I don't know, come help me. Okay ummm i'll talk to her and you take him through the back door. Okay, what you go say to her? Shit I don't  know i'm say something doe. HEY, Riya mom. Hey Trina. So ummm what you doing at this time at the night. I'm grown I do what i want, may I ask you what you are doing at this? Ummm it's only 10:19 and i don't have to be in until 10:30 sooo, how was your day. Fine what about you. It was good, I didn't know what to say cause we don't talk that much but I was trying. Riya runs out side thanks. No problem. She was looking at us like she knew we was up to something. Okay i'm fanna go home i'll see you tomorrow. I walk in the ate some pizza rolls and watched spongebob until I fell asleep. BANG BANG BANG GANG GANG! My alarm start to go off ugh okay okay i'm up. I get up and go in the bathroom I had to pee. I washed my hands and bushed my teeth since I was in there. What i'm I fanna wear, oh my cheetah print leggings, my pink v-neck, my black bag, and my white nike's. My hair is flat iron sometimes but nah not for the last couple or days i got my hair braids. There red, black, and like two shades of brown. I look at the clock it's almost time to go. I walk to go get Riya. I knock on her window and she jumped, she was changing at the time. OMG! Why you ain't just knock on the door creep? Cause I don't know. Is YOU READY ugly ass girl? Yea, will almost here I come. We walked to the bus stop and waited for a good 10 mins I was fanna leave cause it's cold in the morning but she came. We got on the bus. Man this bitch in my seat. Who bestfriend? Alexus duck face ass. Aye? Can you move out my set you see me sit here everday. And i don't care. Man somebody better get her ass before I fuck you up early in the morning. Trina calm down it's just a seat. Nope cause she fanna move her simple ass out my seat. I'm not fanna fight for no seat. Okay so get yo ass up and we wont. She got up and sat next to her brother. Right like I said motherfuckers was gone move out my seat. Me and my bestfriend sat down. When we got to the school i was kinda happy to see my FL. DONTAE? Yes motherfuckers shit why you yelling? I laughed, because i didn't think you heard me. Awe,  well Hi, can i have yo muffin? UHH no im fanna eat this i'm hungry. You can have this apple. Nah i'm okay. I got to fist hour and hope that this will be a fast day............. Aye it's 2:20 already we fanna shake. Jamie? Yes. What you fanna do when you get home? Nothing for real, what about you? Nothing I was gone see if I can come to yo house. Awe well yea i'm not doing nothing. Okay. I got on Jamie bus. When we got to Jamie house I got hungry. Hey Jamie are you hungry. Yea, what you trying to make. I guess some chicken, do you want some? Yea, are you going to bake it? No, i'm frying it. OMG! You know how to fry chicken? I laughed, yes I do. I'll make the mac-cheese. Kk. That was so good. Yea it was. WOW! What time is it? 9:20. Awe I need to get home I have to babysit. Okay, i'll see you tomorrow. I start to walk home and I saw a group of girls. AYE GIRL AYE I KNOW YOU HEAR ME. How can i help you. You know a girl name Alexus? Yea why? They start to walk to me. I asked you a question. I got nerves and start to walk backwards.