Angels Forever // Ziam

Five

[Liam]

I woke up after dreaming of being able to see and being able to visualize things like any normal person would, i have been in the darkness for as long as i can remember and i hated the feeling. It was almost like being trapped underground, not being able to see anything but pitch black surrounding you as you try to escape the black hollow.

I felt Zayn's light breaths hit the side of my cheek, basking in his embrace. He was holding onto me, one arm under my head and the other across my stomach. I looked at his sleeping beauty face, mesmerized by his long eyelashes and perfect lips that were curved into a smile, smiling as i ran the back of my hand across the stubble on his chin.

Zayn awoke as my skin touched his face, stretching and making low grunts. He looked down at me, grabbed my chin and brought my lips closer to his, brushing them softly on mine. "Good morning gorgeous", Zayn muttered in a groggy yet cute tone. "morning love", i returned. We just layed there, in bed, holding eachother. I honestly didn't want to get up because the moment just seemed to be so unreal, it's way beyond anything i've ever felt and it was a comforting yet scary feeling and i didn't know quite what to do. "Holy. it's 9, i got to get home before mom realizes im gone", Zayn said in a hurry, putting on his clothes and shoes. "I'll see you at school", i whispered. It was late start and we didn't start the school day until 10:30. "Yeah babe". I rubbed my eyeballs and groaned as Zayn got up and shut the door behind him. I still hated going to school despite Zayn and I getting closer, we were together but we weren't offical, we didn't have a title. I hated the fact that when we were anywhere but alone Zayn acted the same way he did when we didn't know eachother on the level we do now. It didn't change that he was still poplar, still friends with Harry who despised me for whatever reason.

I got up and put my shirt on, a migraine developing from getting up too fast. I shook it off and continued to make my towards the kitchen, smelling burnt toast and eggs my mom was preparing for breakfeast. I didn't like to give her too much shit because she was working hard for the both of us, to keep us alive and stable, even though not stable enough. "Sorry sweet heart, the toast is a little burnt, im just in a hurry. I have to be at work in a couple of minutes. Nancy put me on the spot the last time i walked in late and she said she would make me work extra hours for no pay if i was late again", my mom said in a hurrying tone placing the scrambled eggs on my plate. "Don't worry about it mom, really it's no big deal, just get to work. Okay?".  "Don't be foolish, you can't walk to the bus stop alone", she exclaimed in a worried tone. "Lou is picking me up today, don't worry mom i'll be fine". "Okay darling, be careful, be safe, remember your cane and i love you". "I love you too mom", I cracked a smile as she kissed my forhead and headed out the door. I was surprised she didn't ask anything about Zayn, maybe her mind was just clouded because she was in a hurry to get to work.

I put thehalf eaten piece of toast on the plate as i heard knocking coming from the front door. I grabbed my cane and whipped it out so it would touch the ground and i could make my way safely towards the door. "I'm going Im going", I muttered. I opened the door to a smiling Louis, "Hey you ready to head out", Louis stammered nearly tripping over the hump at the bottom of the door. "yeah just help me find my backpack". We shuffled around looking for the book bag, until Louis finally found it underneath a pile of clothes. "alright let's goooo", Louis says eagerly tapping my back.

Arriving at the school entrance, I felt my stomach clench. Louis made an immediate stop and ran to the other side to help me out. "Thank you", I let out a sigh as I got out the car and whipped out my cane. I always wondered if the other students looked at me, I couldn't see them obviously, I certainly felt them looking at me though. Wondering if they're judging me, talking about me.

"Liaam", a calm Niall said out loud. I turned my head to the sound of his voice and smiled directly at him. "Hey can you help me to class", I asked anxiously. "Duh we have it together smart one".

After first period we had lunch, it was late start so the day and the classes were all scrambled up. The cafetria was full, as usual, with raging hormoned teens ready to attack the food they were served. I wasn't hungry today though, i was honestly in a state of confusion because i was having second thoughts about Zayn. Yeah sure, in the moment it seems amazing and i never want it to end but then reality comes along and slaps me hard. I have to accept the fact that he just wants me to be a secret, someone he can go to when he has no one because he knows i have no one and i'll always be there to help him through whatever.

I wasn't paying attention to where I was going, and my cane got caught up in between the benches. I tripped and my head was smashed against the metal trash can that was chained to the ground for whatever reason. I just remained there, on the ground. Trying to fight the pain that was my brain pulsing against my skull. I screamed out in agony as everyone gathered around to look, while this sweet female voice which was recognizable came to my rescue. "okay, hey, shhh. It's gonna be okay. Let me get you up to the nurses office", jasmine said softly being gentle and being careful not to hurt me further. "Don't be such a cry baby", Harry laughed from the crowd, the crowd following his lead. My tears fell to the ground, just letting them drown I got up with jasmines assistance. Everyone could see. I was so embarrassed, I was so hurt that I could allow that much attention on myself knowing that someone would just make a mockery of me.

Loud footsteps came running toward me and Jas. Hoping it was Zayn, i bit my lip and wiped away my tears. To my dismay it was just Niall. Don't get me wrong I was happy to see at least someone cared, but it wasn't the person I was having second thoughts about: Zayn. "God damn, what happened Li", Niall said it horror looking at my hurt self. "I.. I wasn't paying attention and tripped and banged my head on something", I explained shyly. "Im fine though honestly, I just, it hurts okay", I laughed. Niall was quiet after, all the way to the nurse, and it was obvious why. He has a crush on Jas. "hey hey Niall, why don't you ask Jasmine out", I said sort of whoozy. Her face turned red and she shyly looked at Niall. "Uh uh", Niall rubbed the back of his neck and choked up. "Fine I'll do it for Ya", i continued, "Jasmine will you go out with me, from Niall's perspective?". She chuckled and glanced at Niall and quietly said "yes".

[Zayn]

I was looking for Liam all over after listening to everyone saying "the blind boy got hurt". I ran over to Harry because he was always on top of everything as soon as something happened. "Harry have you seen Liam", I asked shakily. "yeah he was here a couple minutes ago but Jasmine helped him to the nurse, why do you care?", he asked in a suspicious tone. I didn't care to answer him I was just worried about Liam, and just wanted to be with him.

After walking across campus I finally reached the nurses office, looking for Li. I saw his mother signing the release form and I saw him, coddling an ice pack against his head. Blood dripping down from the gauze covering the open wound. I walked over, "Hey Mrs.Payne, is everything gonna be alright". "Yes dear thank you, I just need to take him to the hospital to get the wound stitched up", she smiled at me. I hugged Liam and rubbed his back gently not even sure if he was aware of what was going on around him. I was worried, even though his mom tried to reassure me otherwise, I still felt like i could've prevented this somehow.

I don't think he knows how much I actually care for him. I would do anything for him, just to make sure he's doing alright. I always tell him things he already knows, I always ask him where he wants to go, he's been careful all his life. I want to make him mine but it's hard to say, it always comes off in a cheesy way. I love everything he does, when he calls me dumb for the stupid shit I do. There truly nobody for me, but him. I've never felt this way for anybody, and I'm just having trouble showing it.