Don't be Yourself!! (On Hold, Sorry!)

Fifth Chapter

~Trystan's POV~~

I felt her breathing evenly against my chest as I kept walking toward her apartment. I wanted to just take her to my apartment because it was a shorter distance away. I couldn't though since people were probably still crashing my things and listening to music too loud from a party for me. Weird thing is that they probably didn't even know I wasn't there anymore.

I exhaled as I tried to hit the cross walk button without dropping Paige's light frame. I looked down at her laying there, curled up against my broad chest. Bruises and marks littered all over her, and it made me wonder yet worry at the same time for this small innocent girl in my arms. Her skin seemed to glow in the moonlight as my eyes trailed down her body to memerize every single detail about her.

Her brown hair was turning wavy from the sweat that was covering her body moments before we went out into the dark cold night. The waves framed her face and acted as a veil to hide her from all the evil in the world. Jagged edges told me that her haircut must have been selfinflicted and very loosely thought out. I liked that about Paige, her lack of caring about her looks and her caring for other people.

My eyes roamed from her eyes that I knew were a rich chocolate brown that I'd love to devour. Then, past her full eyelashes, down her nose that you could only tell was crooked if you were up close like I was now, and to her lips. Those full, beautiful pink lips that I would love to...

HONK

I jumped out of my trance to see me in the middle of the roadway by her hotel. "Sorry," I yelled to him as I lightly jogged into the hotel lobby. The nice air conditioned breeze hit me when I passed the thresh hold and walked to the elevator. A loud ding sounded when the elevator arrived and it made me jump my glance to see Paige shift but not awake. I used the key Kriss gave me as I slowly unlocked the door.

I dropped Paige's limp body onto the bed as I covered her up to her shoulders. Dropping a small kiss on her forehead I went into the Kitchen to settle the rumble in my tummy. I stumbled by a note as I opened up a bag of chips.

Paige-Babe-

Steph came over here asking about you then BELIEVE IT OR NOT, but we got to talking and so we're going out (: Please, don't wait up for me... I am a big kid now.

I nodded to myself as a smile twitched my lips. Now he won't be after Paige. I shook my head clear as I put the chips back and tried to put away my feelings for Paige. I can't even say her name without a shiver of desire running down my spine. The sound of her name on my lips, my name on hers, I replay that sound in my head over and over.

I swallowed as I got in the bed beside her and closed my eyes, thinking about all that happened to day and putting in my own little parts where she tells me she loves me and I tell her I love her.

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I woke to pressure on my abdomen. My eyes fluttered open to see Paige close to my face and a huge chesire grin across her beautiful face. Her hair is crazy with bedhead. I groan as I try to hide a smile and go back to sleep. "Wake up, I'm bored." Her breath hit my ear as a breathy giggle left her mouth. I smiled and twisted us so I was on top while a scream pierced my ears. Her legs automatically wrapped around my waist and her hair spread out on the pillow beneath her.

"Woman, I need my sleep." Right then, the world stopped and I looked right into her eyes. I couldn't breathe and all I saw was her. The space between our lips was slowly diminishing as her lips and eyes went from happiness to reciprocate mine, desire.

"Paige, you would not believe.... Trysten?" Kriss opening the door, shaking me out of my trance. At first, my breath stopped and I contemplated just kissing her anyways to get it out of the way and sort out how I really feel. I was about to start leaning in but Paige quickly got up like she was in trouble, pushed me to the side, then stood next to Kriss. I looked over to them as my right mind got on my shoulders then in a flash I was up, with my pants on and out of the door to let Paige try to come up with excuses. I didn't even now what I was doing in my head, I can't explain it. I swallowed as I dropped a note in the kitchen and left to my house.

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We walked together to the studio and I made sure to leave enough space between us so as not to feel the shiver of desire run through my body. Our chatter had been covering up the silence of what's been going on between us these last couple weeks full of tension, anticipation and awkward moments when we catch ourselves wanting more. I find myself gulping as my imagination runs off with a million what ifs. Raising my head, I realize that Paige had grown quiet. "Paige, you alright?" My tone was nonchalant and bored so as not to uncover any suspicion of actually caring. She didn't answer me and her eyes were an empty pit of darkness then I started to worry when her face turned downward. My body automatically stopped moving and I reached out to grab her delicate arm. "Paige," My voice trailed off in concern.

She shook her head off and looked at me with a small, apologetic smile. "Sorry, I was lost in thought." A small pink tint landed on her beautiful cheeks and her hair covered half of her face like a shield from my concerned gaze. As we started moving again, I couldn't help but wonder what she was thinking.

"What were you lost in thought about, if I may ask?" My hands made their way to my back pockets and I snuck a glance at her through my peripheral vision. I don't why I was being so formal and careful. I shouldn't give a rat's ass about what will happen to her and I if I did pursue my feeling of just hot animal se-... Yeah. That's all this is. I'm just attracted to her body, I couldn't like her, like her. Feelings are for people who know what they are and deserve to fall in love. I'm neither of those people.

"Have you ever," The sound of her voice stopped along with her legs and my trailing imagination. "Now this is completely hypothetical, got that?" I nodded at her threatening tone and then her gaze landed right back onto the ground. "Have you ever felt, not normal?" Paige started to walk with her hands in her front pockets and her body indented like a shell. "Like there is something inside of you that everybody else doesn't have? Something that may be... evil?" Paige's voice went from her usual confidence to a small quivering doubt of a voice.

I stopped moving, once again, not caring if we're late. I grabbed her by the shoulders, looking at the scalp of her head since she would not meet my gaze. I used my forefinger and thumb to gently lift her chin, "You, Paige Moore, evil?" A harsh laugh left my throat as I tried to move her closer to me so she would understand how ridiculous she sounds. "I have known you for about a month and I know that you're the opposite of evil. Evil wouldn't give away their last five dollars, or support their friend just because they wanted to tag along on your trip to LA. They wouldn't smile everyday, laugh and show the most love than I've seen in I don't know how long. The cast loves you, it's hard not to! Why don't you understand that?"

Suddenly, her emotions were like a flick of the switch and she was angry. "I said it was just hypothetical! I don't need you to make me feel better! I'm not some stupid self centered 'low self-esteemed' girl who needs to be complimented every three seconds!" With a stomp of her pretty foot, she ran in the other direction so fast I knew I wouldn't have a chance to catch up with her.

Still, I screamed after her and tried to catch up anyways. The vibration in my pocket was the only thing that stopped me. After a sigh, I reached in my pants to grab my phone which was angrily screaming, just like Paige was. I answered reluctantly, "Hello?"

"Where the hell are you? I hope you have Paige with you too! The whole cast is waiting for you guys to show up! We can't get rolling without our stars in tow, it's one of the last episodes of the season!" In the background, I could hear the whole cast laughing in my expense. My father was upset but I was more upset by Paige's departure. Combing my fingers through my blonde hair, I thought of what to say.

"Father? I'm on my way now but Paige can't come in.." I muffled my voice as I hoped he would just leave it at that, but I knew he wouldn't. Us not being there was losing him money and that would kill him before my death ever did. My legs started to move so hopefully he would hear my rushing.

"Why are you wasting my money, boy?! Why isn't she coming, either? Does she know she is loosing my money?"

"Dad, please, just let it be, I'm almost there. I'm on the street now." I ran as quickly as possible without him hearing me becoming winded. I hung up so I wouldn't have to fight with him anymore and walked into the studio while contemplating what exactly I did to Paige.