i fell for a jerk, a kenman story

Chapter 2: sadness and crushes

Cartmans pov
i got off the bus and saw the sl*t that dumped kenny for token. "what a b*tch." i mumbled to my self. why did i feel bad for kenny? hes just my friend and nothing else! but, he didnt know that she was with that token..no. sh*t! sh*t! im crushing on a boy!?! and hes kenny!?! crap! "hey cartman, your thinking of kfc arent you!?!" teased kyle not noticing kenny slowly catching up to us.

"no, jew!" i said angrly. i couldnt tell them i was gay, because then their gonna laugh at me. "god d*mmit! now you did! i said as we walked into class. i notice kenny wasnt ok but i wasnt gonna be nice or notice him at all.

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after class, we went to lunch and ate. while we ate it was super quiet. "dude, kenny, you ok??" asked stan. sadness fell over him and into my eyes. f*ck!! i hate this! "she dumped me man..for token." said kenny crying. "i know man..it sucks." said stan. blush ran onto my cheeks and i hid my face into my hat. "c-cartman?" said kenny. "i..." that was the only thing i could say and i stormed off blushing really hard.

i rushed into the bathroom and slid down the wall. "god d*mmit." i said quietly to myself. then, i heard butters come in whistling happily and i soon wished i was like that instead of anxious feelings. "hi eric!" said butters. "hi.." i said misreably. "are you ok?" he asked sitting down. i had no one to tell without being made fun of so i had to tell him.."do not tell anyone nor kinneh this but butters....i think im gay." i say. "seriously??" said butters. "or are you screwing me?" "serious." i answered. "and what might you think that?" said butters.

i gulped and and sighed. "because...i have a crush on...on..kinneh.." i said as fearfull tears fell down my face. "wow....but whats so bad about it?" asked butters. "because i know everyone hates me so he would never love me..thats what makes me ashamed of myself.." i said breaking down in tears. soon i stopped crying and left. stupid me, he would never love me in a million years! i sat back down not looking at the others. "um..cartman...are you ok?" asked kyle. i still felt like i wanted to cry and scream. my throat burned to cry really bad.

"fine, jew." i said sounding like i was gonna cry. my eyes were puffy and red from crying alot and my face was still red too. "if i told you, you wouldnt believe me or care." i said looking down still. "dude, yes we would care." said stan. i looked up and looked away and then back to them. "im ashamed of myself and look were my fata** got to because of mt meaness...no one to have comfort for...no one to tell me to stay strong..just..god d*mmit!!" i say. "because people think i would want something! all i want is friends who care..." i say crying. i saw all the shocked faces on them and i walked away and saw kenny run after me.