Dreams (Poofless AU) [Slow Updates]

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???'s POV

I didn't mean to kill him. I only to hurt wanted to him. To hurt his friendly personality, his energized eyes, and his stupid self confidence. Maybe I did want to kill him, maybe I just wanted to cripple him so badly to the point of death.

It should have been me who won that award. I worked day and night while Rob just got it because of his perfect GPA. I had a perfect GPA as well, so why wasn't I the one who won that damn award? Was it because they favorited him more? Was it because he had a family member in one of thr judges spots?

He didn't deserve it, I put in hours of doing stupid community work and that didn't count for shit did it? Hours upon hours of doing work and for it to mean nothing in the end infuriated me.

Frustration and irritation pierced through me as I shut my eyes, clouding me in dark envy. I blocked the outside world and focused on my mind.

God damn it, none of this would have happened if I had gotten that award. Rob would still be alive, Brandon wouldn't be scarred for life and I wouldn't have a homicide on my hands.

The award that everyone in my family owns. The award that if you didn't own in my family you were looked down on like a high school dropout. The award that only the best of the best receive.

I kicked a mechanical pencil that had been rolling around my foot for a while now and looked down at my hands, remembering what they looked like that night.

After all the work I did getting rid of him, I still didn't get the award. They canceled the award for two years now, something they did to honor Rob or some shit like that.

That award belonged to me, and me only. Not to some perfect attendance flower loving hippie.

"Yo, are you ready to go to lunch?"

I quickly plastered a smile on my face and strained my anger. My chest heaved a little bit as I let the air that I was involuntary not taking in.

"Damn Choco, what's the rush? The food isn't going anywhere."

"Piss off will ya?"

I laughed at our small conversation and walked over towards him. All I have to do is keep calm, and don't let that fake smile fall off of my face face.
It amazes me how much someone could hide behind a fake smile.

To make sure he didn't catch on to my emotions I threw my arm around him and we steadily made our way to the cafeteria.

On the outside I was calm, cool, and collected but on the inside I was the exact opposite.

I won't let anyone get in the way of that award.

Even if it means I have to get my hands dirty again.

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#DreamLand