Rants and other junk.

#ChapterforRox

I have been very upset for the past 15ish hours, and here's why.

So a couple of months ago I found a little website called Wattpad.

I wasn't sure what it was,

I wasn't sure what the people on it were like,

Until I found a writer called Sqampylove (can't tag her as I am on my phone :/) I started reading her books and fell in love with them.

A little while after I found her page I saw she had voted/commented on a book called  "Don't Leave Me" by a girl called Rox the fox (_Fox_Girl_) I decided to check it out and I am so glad I did.

I became really good friends with Rox and we DMed a couple of times, and I always looked forward to her updates and I enjoyed reading her replies to my comments.

She was a pretty good online friend. 

Until last night at about 11:55pm when I decided to check wattpad, I went to Sqampylove's profile and saw that she had commented on an update of Don't Leave Me.

I got really excited and decided to read it.

I clicked on _Fox_Girls_ profile and clicked on the new chapter, as soon as I saw the title I knew something was up.

The chapter was an A/N (author note) and it basically said goodbye. Rox the Fox was going to commit suicide. (This was so hard to type my hands are shaking and I am tearing up) 

She  said goodbye to her favorite friends/authors and then she said goodbye to a list of people that were followers of hers. I was on that list ;-; she said goodbye to...   Me.

I cried myself to sleep that night and I have been doing my best to not to cry all day.

A couple of hours after Rox posted this "Goodbye" chapter her friend logged on to her account and said that she didn't die Rox landed in water and was now on life support (read the post to learn the full story) I was both relieved and upset at the same time.

Rox wanted to end her life on her birthday, she said that she was going to say "Happy Birthday To Me" as she was falling to her death. ;-;

I cannot believe that someone who has brought me happiness. Was so depressed. 

Please Pray for Rox even if you do not know her, even if you are not Christian even if you do not care. 

Pray for her.

(I am now crying)