I stripped my clothes off and hopped in the shower .
I thought about Sam
Mostly Calum..
I hadn't heard from him since ..
Did he forget about me ?Its been five weeks..
I massaged my scalp,rinsed my hair out ,my hair smelled Fine .
I giggled
I got out dried myself off
And quickly got changed
.
I jogged off to ari's room.
I kissed her head softly "wake up ,darling."I whispered
No use.
"Sweeetie,wakeeee up."I whispered .
She quietly got up"morning mommy.."she rubbed her eyes
"Morning darling ."I smiled
"Where's daddy?"she smiled.
Sitting up.
"Well,I came to ask you the same thing .."I brushed the hair out of her eyes.
"Last time I saw him wassssss..."she began scratching her head.
"Was??"I questioned her getting impatient.
"Oh!i remember !"she giggled "it was last night !!"she beamed .
"Last night ..?"I asked a bit confused .
"He came to say bah bye.He left with uncle Sammy."she giggled .
"You knew..?"I teared up..
"I sowwy mama.."she hugged me softly ."donut cry mommy .."she kissed my cheek.
"I-I'm not crying .."I lied
"Whatever floats your boat."she giggled .
"Where's your daddy?"she smiled
"My daddy?"I questioned .
She nodded ."The one you told to stop drooling ."she laughed
I giggled ."downstairs ."
I picked her up and ran down the stairs ,skipping a few .
She giggled the whole way down .
"Morning!!!"I yelled.
"Morning ."he yelled from the kitchen
"What areeee you doing ??"I giggled,setting ari down .
"Trying to make pancakes.."he smiled
"You know you actually need eggs to make pancakes.."I giggled.
"Yeah..I uh knew that.."he lied.
"Let's go to the grocery store ."I signaled to the door .
"Ari ,babe .Go get dressed ."I smiled
"Okay,mommy."she smiled running up the stairs
"Kiss first please?"he whimpered.
"Fine."
He began getting close to me ,I closed my eyes .
Next thing I know I had Nutella all over my freshly washed face.
"Please don't kill me !but I had to ,revenge for making me drool!!"he laughed ,running up the stairs.
"I'm gonna get you back ."I laughed
I I licked away the Nutella on my lips .
I walked to the bathroom ,washing off the Nutella.
My phone rang ,Calum.
I slid ,and accepted the call ,putting it on speaker .
"What?"I spat.
"I stopped by to tell you I was leaving for the weekend ,to help Sam and ren move into their small little house ."
A sigh of relief brushed over me .
"You didn't think I was permanently moving ,did you?"he laughed.
"No,no I didn't ..Yes,yes I did.."I giggled .
"I would never leave ,thousands miles away from you."he smiled .
"Thanks for always being there for me ."I smiled
"I gotta blast ,Sam's screaming at me for talking to you,bye love you!"
He hung up.
Why was Sam turning against me all of a sudden?ugh whatever.
I felt a kiss on my neck.
"You okay?"
"Perfect ."I walked away shoving my phone in my pocket.
"Your definitely not okay.."
"Leave me alone ,for like 10 minutes ,k?"I spat turning toward the door .
"Why are you being like this?"he sighed
"Paul,there's something you need to know about me ..I'm not a girl you can wrap around your finger .Ive got a jet black heart,and there's a huge hurricane trying to keep us apart.It keeps me from loving .."I walked out slamming the door behind me .
I sat on the sidewalk,thinking of what I could have possibly done .
Was it about my daughter ?
Was it about me and Paul?
Was it me and Calum..?
I cursed under my breath.
If there's one thing I hate is being ignored or hated .
what's my problem lashing out on Paul like that?!
I buried my head inside my knees.
I cried softly .
The blood in my veins are made up of mistakes ...
I screamed .
"I'm a mistake!!!!"I yelled in between loud sobs.
My phone lit up .
A text from 'my baby wilk'
'Wilk'-go die in a hole !
You don't deserve to live anymore .
I'm embarrassed to even text you.
If you ever try talking to me again,I'll make sure to shoot myself.
Your voice ,it annoys me so much .
Maybe you should try sowing your mouth shut ,so I won't have to hear your voice !
Me-what did I do to deserve this?!
If you want me to kill myself ,I won't .
Your words may hurt me a lot ,knowing I was in love with you when we were 15!
I'm glad to realize how big of w jerk you are Sam wilkinson!
I threw my phone on the ground ,screaming loudly .
I saw a car approach me
"TAKE ME ALREADY!"
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Fanfiction"I know he won't ever get the letters." In which a small town girl ,falls in love with a big time youtuber. Will he love her back ,is the real question.
