Living In A Society That Defines You As A Teenage Outcast

Be True, Be You.

When I first figured out i was a teenage outcast, I was in year 7 in high school. Now , that's not the only the day I found out I was a teenage outcast, I also found out I was a DUFF.

DUFF
Designated
Ugly
Fat
Friend
I'll explain this later on.

I was in year 7 and the 2 girls I was really good friends with where more popular than me. Boys would remember their names. They would ask to be partners in drama. These little things now mean nothing to me but then, they meant everything! I wanted to be the pretty girl in all the teenage high school movies. I wanted to be popular and I'm sure many of you reading this wanted to be popular too. I personally don't think you choose to be the outcast, but the people surrounding you choose that for you and you just kind of accept it because that's all you can do. That's your place. That's who your going to be. That's who you are. From that moment in drama I took a look around me and noticed everyone had a partner but me. It was always the same. In P.E, when the girls would be spilt in half and each side had to choose a person, I was always the last person to be chosen. It sucked. I'm
Sure most of you guys experienced it too. But that's the perks of being an outcast.
My 2 "friends" eventually left me and I was a Lone Ranger. Just strolling around high school. I made a couple of friends but they was the math enthusiasts or the people who adored science and how amazing the Big Bang theory is (not the TV programme). I wanted to be friends with someone like me. I'm sure many of you have felt this way too. You just want someone who knows exactly how your feeling. Someone who is on the same level as you!. I never found that person. Not even today. I'm still a Lone Ranger but my friends at college where all popular but lost the popularity now they they've started college and everyone's their own person. The only friend I have is a guy. That's not a bad thing but he's not really a friend. We don't speak often out of college. It's just the Hi over text or the "what do I need to do for this work, I'm stuck" kinda messages. So I guess I don't really have any "good friends" besides my 1 internet friend.

Back to high school. In year 9 I found who I was. I found my music taste. I found my fashion. I found me. My music taste was indie. My fashion was girly but sometimes indie. I was an outcast and I knew it. I always thought to myself that Normal people don't listen to this music? They listen to chart music or that song off white chicks ;). Im not sure if I'm still 100% correct on that though 😂.
Now present day I'm still the same person. I'm being true to myself and I'm living in a society that's defined me as an outcast. I'm proud to be a fucking outcast because outcasts are the people that have more strive to do something with their lives! I mean yeah. We like pizza and video games and bands. But that's just how we role. *Que song*. I think that living in a outcast now is a lot better than it was in high school. You can see the outcasts walking down the street and you know your not the only one that struggled in high school being the outcast. There's more people that are alike you than you think and that's how the universe rolls.

Now the DUFF situation isn't really the best story but it's part of being an outcast.
I was at my first high school party. My friends got invited and they invited me. I didn't know what the hell to wear. I was 11/12 years old. I had nothing dressy?! One of the girls lent me a dress. It was fucking beautiful! Anyway I personally thought I looked really
Good. In a non vein way! Anyway we arrived at this party and everyone was saying hey to my 2 friends and then they'd have to ask for my name. Everything was going really well until I started arguing with one of my
Friends. Sorry let me re- fraise that. " friends". She said that I needed to act more girly and I was perfectly fine being the amount of girly I was!? So I obviously defended myself. She then brought up DUFF and she was right. That night so many dudes came up to be asking about my 2 friends but none of them was interested in me. If your not familiar with what a duff is . Your basically a gateway for boys to get to know information about your friends before they can make a move on them. Your the less attractive friend who is more approachable in situations that the boy wants to know things about the girl that your friends with before they can... You know.. Sex. Yeah so my friend said I was a DUFF and explained it. She was right. My 2 friends where like Megan fox and Jennifer Lawrence. I was...... A carrot compared to them. I'm not even joking when I say carrot.

I'm still a carrot and I'll still be the DUFF in a group of female friends without a doubt.