The Continuing days and nights brought her pain, inside and out. she would bleed, staring in the mirror with no facial expression. Not knowing love that she could be feeling. her mother taught her better then to feel. emotion is something that makes you weak, people will take advantage of you in weakness. she was an unwanted, mistake, bastard child. she would never know her father. never wanted to know him. the scars she held on her arms. cuts re-opening, her mother taught her and she burn one cigarette after another onto her arm and back. till one day she handed her a knife. she always wore long sleeve the pain was for her to only see and feel.
Still though feelings gone she went to school. two-faced as always got through the day. sometimes she was bullied but it was nothing. crying was a sign of weakness. she would never cry. a promise to herself the day she cried was the day she breathed her last breathe of cold air. as herself.
No family would come and see her. no one knew what her mother was doing to her since she was 5.
Still not knowing the butterflies of love, how to smile so bright she would blind herself in happiness all around & the warmth of a hug.
People misunderstood her no one ever talked to her. other then the teacher, whose voice of tone was always high rough with anger but soon they gave up and ignored her as nobody...
These days there aren't many who would go stand up and say "hello" with a smile.
The other girls used her as a target; to be with the popular kids they sacrifice someones life.
one day her mother got a boyfriend who gave her a gun.
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You do not need to be popular because if u are positive and always do what is right, show kindness know
how to love, you will already be popular( or happier).
To me even if I don't know the person i have always cried for them. that they took there own life.
your kindness can save them. :) just a smile can help. Even we have our days where we don't give a COOKIE about anything,
To me honestly i feel like that alot i mean ALOT! its painful that's true, but I know emotion it can be a weakness when there are jerks but its also your strength against them, and also a great part of life and your choices. don't let your friends change you to do wrong stupid things. i'd much rather see blue skies then steel bars anyday HBU?
