All Alone

Part 4

"No Al stop this is wrong" you looked up at him but stilled as you saw tears in his brown eyes.....

"What the hell Al, what's the matter "

"Your bump it's growing, your baby is growing, our baby is growing" he corrected himself "can't believe how much of a dick I've been and now you can't stand for me to touch you"

You felt for him but you couldn't make things easy for him, he can't just walk in and play happy families. "I can't believe this change of heart so soon Al, what would have happened if I hadn't have walked in the coffee shop today eh" you pushed him away from you his scent and his hands on your waist was overpowering. 

You caught him staring at you, the gown was still open, his eyes travelling your naked body you quickly covered yourself.

"See you have not been keeping up with the grooming eh" he smirked, his eyes alive with lust

"Grow up Al, so what if I've not shaved, unlike you getting some action hasn't been my priority! You haven't answered my question"

"I was gonna call round this weekend on the off chance to see if you would speak to me. Like I said I miss you and I didn't realise how much until now. When I left to go on tour all those months ago it hit me then, it was hard to leave you, I'd even spoke to lads about you shared some details they couldn't believe we been sleeping together for two years and I'd never introduced you and neither could I. I tried to picture my life without you and I couldn't, then you rang with your news and well...." He trailed off and pushed his hair back his gaze to the floor, his fingers playing with his death ramp ring.

You couldn't believe you was about to say this " you've hurt me beyond my wildest dreams Al, I never asked for a relationship or money just some support and now I'm five months pregnant and you have a sudden change of heart, I have to do what's right for me and my baby, our baby. Yes we know each other pretty well but not that well, I've never met the band not least each other's families...." You turned your back on him, your head ached. "I think you should leave Al, I need time to think and if you are true to your word you have an American to send on her way"

"Y/N she's already on a flight, when you left the coffee shop we left soon after and I ended it. Told her I couldn't commit, that I'd fell in...."

"STOP! DO NOT SAY THOSE WORDS" you spun round and shouted at him "those are bare faced lies Al, if you loved me you wouldn't have left me all alone" the tears flowed again you slumped onto the stool. It was all too much, you needed time. He knelt down in front of you and took hold of your face and kissed your cheek whispering apologies over and over. The conflict inside was infuriating, you loved him and loathed him. You spent a few minutes like this him on his knees his arms wrapped around you his head on your shoulder like a school boy asking for forgiveness.

"I was thinking of a 3d scan, I have an appointment in two days, we could find out the sex. Do you want to come with me" this would be the test for him.

He raised his head, shock on his face, those brown eyes searching your face "certainly, I want to be there" you stared at each other until you had to close your eyes, that was when he kissed you, gentle pecks until your swollen lips opened up for him, his tongue was gentle searching for forgiveness the kiss was meaningful and quickly built up. Your hands gripped his head holding him in place running your hands through his hair which was now pretty long on his neck. You needed this, a fresh rush of Al in your veins. You finally pulled away both breathless foreheads pressed together.

"You need to leave now, we both have a lot to think about. I can't let you just walk back like nothing has happened you need to earn my trust Al" He kissed your forehead, nodded and got to his feet. You followed him the door.