Life right now is getting really tough for me. My boyfriend's in hospital, my best friend has come to stay for a while, mum's struggling to start her own business and now school!
School's back... When school's back that means trouble. Everything was normal until one day my friend Kaylee comes up to me and starts telling me all these things she hates about me and how I do everything wrong in life. I don't know where this came from but I was just filled up with so much anger and sadness that I let loose. I returned the favour by having a go at her for all the times she's left me behind and favoured everyone else over me. All those times that I was there for her but she was never there for me. The times when she was so low in life that I had to save her. Every time she's made me the side friend and never one of her main priorities.
All of these memories come flooding back to me and I break down into tears. I just sit there on the floor, alone, crying.. No one even bothered to stop and help me. I was a nobody. Nobody ever thought of me, if they did it was only if they wanted something. I felt so bad about myself that I stopped going to school for weeks on end, staying at home I cried myself to sleep and put on a brave face when ever mum walked in. Right now I can't do much. I'm alone and no one wants me in their lives anymore. The paparazzi have gone away because I've locked myself in. It's been a while since I took a visit to the hospital but mum says that Ashton's recovery is going well. Hopefully when he makes it out of hospital everything is going to be better with me. I know it seems stupid to look after yourself before your image and it's really hard to follow that but when no one believes in you and the whole world feels like it's against you there's nothing you can do but to fall into the trap.
The people who truly love me will help me right? That's what I first thought when I got into this mess. My friends at school turned on me and mums struggling to take care of me. When Ashton makes it out of hospital he'll be able to help mum take care of the house. He'll move in upstairs and he'll have access to everything in my house. Hopefully it happens soon before my family falls apart. I don't know what's going on with me, how am I going to find the light at the end of the tunnel? I can't do it at least, not now, not when I'm by myself.
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Love you all xx Ang❤️
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RandomGrowing up as a kid I wasn't the prettiest or skinniest, so I got bullied quite a lot. As life went on I soon noticed that I only had 3 friends. I only just got through high school as the bullying got worse. I swear I have died a million times but n...
