When I met you

Chapter nineteen

Niall's POV

I can't tell her. I can't, but I'll be lying to her again and lose her. I don't want to lose her again. I've suffered 2 years without her and I don't want it to happen again. I have to betray Perrie. But something will happen if I did.

*Le Flashback*

After our short bonding time, we went back to the hospital. She refused to go inside Zayn's room. Guess she isn't ready to face him yet. There's a part of me that wanted Zayn to remember and a part of me that doesn't want. I want him to remember is for the sake of Diana. I want to make her happy and I noticed that Zayn is the one who makes her really happy. Oh how I wish that was me. I don't want him to remember is because.... I STILL love her. And that will never change.

I wanted her to know that I've never hated her. I wanted her to know that I still love her. Not a past tense. I just wanted her to be mine and I will be hers. Forever. She really is different that Zayn and i only see in her. that's why we like her so much. Well, Zayn won her heart. I was a little jealous of them, always together. Of course it was not only a little jealousy. I was so jealous.

I went inside and left Diana alone outside. Everyone was looking at me. I grimaced at them and sat. They gave me a confused look. "What?" I asked them and they can't stop looking at me. "Can't an Irish boy have some fun?" I asked and they ignored it.

"Where have you been?" Liam asked calmly. Yeah of course.. Daddy Direction. He is just like a dad. So over-protective about his band mates. It sometimes annoy me and it feels like we're only 5. I am already 19 years old and I can manage myself. But I really need him for advices. I love these lads even though they're really annoying and immature. Without one of us, theres no One Direction.

"Outside.. Obviously." I muttered. They rolled my eyes at me. "Seriously, Niall. Where have you been?" Louis said, seriously. That really surprised me. Louis has never been serious. He's only serious when he gets heartbroken. Even when something terrible happen, there is always fun inside him.

"I was with Diana. We were at the cafeteria and went outside to get some air." I admitted. "You were with Diana? Niall, what did you do?" Harry smirked. He really is a pervert, but I also love him. He is the best cook ever which made me love him more.

"We did nothing, okay? I'm not like that and plus, we're not even together and didn't love me anymore." I said and he nodded. "I was just kidding." He said and I punched his arm playfully. "i know. Its pretty obvious. You always joke around. I bet you got that from Louis?"

"Whatever." He muttered.

"Where is she right now?" Zayn asked from behind. "Outside. She doesn't want to go inside." I answered. "Why not? She seems weird." He said. "Some reasons." I said.

"Zayn, why don't you exercise outside so that you'll get better." Perrie suggested. Zayn went out and Perrie closed the door and locked it. "Why did you lock it?" Liam asked and she sighed. "I need to talk to you." She said as she sat down on zayn's hospital bed. "What?" Louis blurted. He's rude to Perrie because oh you know.. She broke Zayn's heart. "I want a favor from you. Please." She said. This is the first time that I've heard Perrie that begged for a favor from us. In a nice way.

"What favor?" Harry asked, calmly. No em otion on his face. Yeah we were all mad at her. "Make sure your mouths are all shut, okay?" We nodded.

"Don't ever tell Zayn that Diana is his girlfriend. Tell him that I am the one. Got it?" She said. "What the heck? What makes you think that we'll do it?" Louis said rudely. "Oh because when you didn't, your poor girlfriends will be hated by Directioners and they'll regret that they said yes to your proposal of being their girlfriend. Deal?" She raised her hand for us to shook. Good for her that Eleanor went home when we were gone.