I tried to tell you how it is every day but for some strange reason it always ends up with me on the shit end of the stick.
Just for once I wanna be seen as a person who is true . instead of just another wronged soul in the history of wrong.
Let me step up and shine.
Show you the real colours of my heart. Show you the warmth that I bring. Let me take your hand and show you that its all going to be okay. I say this with truth and honesty.
" I said with patients and fatigue. Surrender your heart and soul at will. Dance with me in the still "
Could it have really been something so dark and twisted that took your life? Could it all have been stopped?
__________*SUICIDE*__________
Wrapping the rope ever so loosely around my neck. Hoping that maybe this time it will finish the job. I sliced my wrist.
I beat my head. At this point I should be dead. After all it was just a misunderstanding
How could she have known?
How could I make it more clearer ?
" it was my thoughts that have gotten the better of me. It was all the lonely nights I spent crying myself to sleep. I figured since the drugs and alcohol wasn't making me forget about you hurting me then sleeping with her would have helped me but I guess I was wrong since that night i have gotten worse and you can't see cause I simply hide it with a smile and laughter.
Its my final breath its hard to see when I'm blinded by the way we use to be. I pour my heart out but you just DONT wanna see."
* every night I lay in my bed and I think about you and everything that we could have been. I lay there till I can't stand the thought of us and then I close my eyes and dream about us and how we could be together and have a life .but then it always turned into a sad ending cause it was me who was left on the side lines as you played the game. Not seeing that I was never playing a game. My real self was all I had to offer you and you took it made me feel like I was special and then you broke it and moved on to the next.
I know that I am the reason behind so much but when it comes to loving you .
I STILL DO
