Nick Bean saved me

3. Mean

      I've been going to my special spot all week, I've told my friends about it and described it to them. I heard somebody close to me talking, I had my eyes closed trying to just listen to the music. When I opened them I saw a guy talking to his phone he looked familiar but I couldn't really see him that well. He was walking to his car and then I got a perfect view of him,he looked up at me and my eyes quickly shot down so he wouldn't see that I was looking at him. Omg. That's Nick Bean! I used to love 5quad and watch them all the time they helped me get out of the dark place I was in. But after the incident I lost everything and didn't care anymore. I heard him say "nothing I thought I saw something." If I was sitting here two months ago I would of ran up to him and probably knocked him over but I didn't even care I just sat here and went back to my music. About an hour later I saw him again, I just frowned at him like.. Stop looking at me. When I got home my friends oovoo me, I told them about Nick because they all know Nick and 5quad. Then my friend Lily said "omg" "what" I said "your the girl!" She said "What girl?" I said confused. " He's been talking about some girl in his broadcasts lately he said she just sits at a picnic table and doesn't do anything, he said you probably smell like moldy cheese sitting there that long." She said. What? He doesn't even know me?? He has no right to talk about me? I said mad. We just talked with the fam. For an hour or so then I drifted off to sleep.
      It's been a week since I've got here now and I've been coming to my spot like everyday it's the only place where I can cry in public and not know anyone. I woke up late again but whatever.. I did my morning routine and let my hair be wavy today. I put on my Minnie Mouse shirt and shorts with my blue vans. (Pic in cover) I went to my spot and of course guess who was there this time sitting at MY picnic table oh hell no. I just walked to the park and sat on the swing. I guess he got bored or something so I went and sat on the picnic table. I saw him come out of his apartment and he wasn't talking to anyone so I texted lily to ask if he was live and she said no. So I yelled "Hey!" He looked up "come here!" I yelled. He started coming over to me, when he was next to me I said "Why are you talking about me in your broadcasts?" He looked at me speechless like he didn't know what to say. "Wha" I cut him off. " you don't even know me! You have no right, to talk about me to your people. And I don't smell like moldy cheese..thanks!" I said and got up leaving. "Wait! you watch me?" He said. I turned around and said "no." "Then how did you kno-." I cut him off. "my friends told me" before he said anything else I said "I got to go" and just walked away.
I woke up crying again this time shaking too, I opened my window to get a fresh breeze. I noticed my screen loose so when I tried to fix it the whole thing fell to the ground outside. "DamIt!" I looked down and saw that the roof was really close to me so I jumped out and walked down the roof to the end and looked down and saw garbage cans there but too far down I couldn't reach them. I looked around and saw a loose brick so I wiggled it out and it fell to the ground. I put my foot in the hole of where the brick was, and climbed out on the garbage and walked to the back yard. I decided to go sit in my spot it was only 12:30 it's not that late. While I was walking there I saw a cop, "crap" I laid flat on the ground until he was gone I smiled. I haven't smiled in so long, I missed being happy, that made me sad thinking about that. Then someone appeared over me. Before I could jump or get scared I heard them say "What are you doing?" I knew it was Nick from his voice. I sat up and I felt a tear fall down my face, I wiped it fast but Nick saw anyway, of course! "What's wrong?" He said "nothing" I said "just thinking" "About what?" He asked. "It's nothing" I said "alright" he said letting it go. "So why are you out here so late?" He asked "I just needed to cool off and get some air..Why are you out so late?" I said while walking to the picnic table. "What are you a cop?" He laughed. I smiled, and realized this is my second time smiling today, it took my mind away from being sad but I felt guilty I shouldn't feel happy it hasn't been even a month since what happened. I felt hot tears down my cheeks, I turned away from Nick, he didn't seem to notice. " I...I have to go." I said I just walked away until I felt someone grab my arm, it was Nick I just looked down so he wouldn't see me cry. "Wait, what happened?" He said. "Nothing! I have to go!" I said getting angry. He just let go and I walked home and went through my window, and shut the blinds so nobody would notice.