5 Seconds Of Summer - Prefrence Book 1

She selfs harms (the boys' pov)

Luke-

I saw the thing i dreaded. Someone hurting themselves physically because other people hurt them.mentally. I turned away from y/n and took a deep breath. Until she grabbed my clammy hand and slipped the lighter in. She stood in front of me and wiped the tears from my eyes. "I love you.." i whispered...if that even meant anything anymore. "I'm sorry Luke" she whispered "I love you too." I drop the lighter in the pocket of my black skinny jeans and pick her up bridal style. I place her on the bed and crawl next to her as we spend the rest of the day cuddling.

Calum-
Shit shit shit i thought. Y/N's going to kill me. I walked into our flat and found a note on the counter along with a bottle of pills. Calum, it read, i know youll never forgive yourself for me doing this and im sorry i hurt you. I just didnt belong here. I belong with my mom. By the time you read this itll be too late. Goodbye baby. I love you. I stopped reading there, even.though there was much left. i had to find her. I ran up the stairs and found her lying on the bathroom floor. I filled the tub with cold water and picked her up. I sat in the tub and placed her on top of me. I quickly sticked 3 fingers down her throat until she threw up. When she did i heard her sobbing, but my baby was alive and in that moment thats all i cared about as we sat in that cold tub.

Ashton-

I got a call from y/n's best friend  saying she was jumped by a bunch of blondes in short skirts and caked in makeup. I drove home and found her. Blood covering her white sweatshirt, just where her wrists were. "Babygirl, not this again.." i coax. I pulled her into my arms and she nuzzled her head into my chest and cried and cried. I took off her sweatshirt and gave her mine and i eventually took her to the bathroom to patch up her cuts. God, i love her so much. And shes definetely changing schools.

(For some reason the your p.o.v uploaded weird for Mikey so here is YOUR P.O.V when he finds out you self harm.

Michael-

Your boyfriend was on tour,he said he would come visit you but he never did,and this was the 4th time he's said it,also you got sent a link of him with another girl.Was he cheating on me? You tried shaking the possibility out of your head.But yoj couldn't.You grabbed Michael's old anti-depressants and downed a few with some water.I just want to sleep.)

Michael's P.O.V-

Today was the day. I got to break from tour and see my beautiful girlfriend and the best part was that today was the day i propose. My friend Ashley (Fragipane duh) helped me pick out the ring so Y/N would love it. As i walked through the door i didnt hear her. I walked.up to our bedroom to see her tucked in bed in a perfect "funeral position". Lying on her back with her hands diagonaly on top of each other. "Sweetheart wake up" i nudge as i lightly push her upper arm. "Hey honey, im home" i keep pushing her. Than it hit me. She took the bottle of.pills placed on her nightstand. I shove a finger down her throat causing her to purge, which wakes her. "Get out." She says sternly, not daring to look at me. "Y/N.." "No ypu.heard me Michael. Get out. Now." I lightly caress her shoulder until she swats my arm away. "Dont fucking touch me! I said get out! Leave! Just leave me here to fucking die! You can go touch that Halsey bitch!" "Baby...no. She helped me."

"With what Michael? When you had a boner and i wasnt around?!"

"Y/N no..with this"

I get down on to one knee and pull out the diamond ring Ashley helped me pick out. "Will you Y/F/N make me the luckiest guy in the world and.marry me? Please say yes.."

"Oh my god Michael yes!!" She shouts, jumping off the bed to hug me. "I'm so sorry babyboy ill never accuse you of cheating again im sorry i love you please forgive me" she rants. "Sweetheart its okay,.i wouldve done the same thing. And i love you too, now lets go get thus ring fitted."