Sorry, please wake up. [Revised]

Dream that was crushed

Outside the ward, near the vending machine, an average sized boy can be seen trying to put the coins into the slot but evidently he can't. His hands are shaking, his face is full of tears and he can't stop sobbing. "It's all my fault. It's all my fault. I know I'm not supposed to cry b-but right now I'm so afraid.. Kami-sama, please.. Please give me back my Shin-chan.. Plea-se.." he choked on his words, sliding down the machine, he hold his head with both hands, ducked it in between his knees, in this lonely night, he cried his heart out. "Shin-chan~~ I'm really sorry~~"

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Basketball training in Shutoku has been something that Takao always look forward to ever since he realized that Midorima Shintaro, a guy that he once swore he will defeat, has become his teammate. This is not coincidence, this is definitely fate. A fate that allows him not just being able to play alongside that arrogant ace-sama, it also allows him to actually get to see the weird, quirky, tsundere side of the green hair guy. A fate that he never expected to turn his life upside down with all the feelings crashing down on him.

Apparently, even though this person is of Generation of Miracles, he is also just a normal high-school student. He trains harder than everyone else, he put in all his efforts into that sport that just perfect for him, and he just improves, getting better day by day. Everyone in the team was terrified by his skills and talents, they were all intimidated by him, but not Takao. Takao realized that behind that stoic face, behind that efforts, behind that sweat-soaked jersey,  and behind all those Oha Asa-lucky item-tapped fingers superstitious jargon, Midorima is still just a normal high-school boy, and he is plainly a tsundere. He doesn't know how to express his feelings well, and he doesn't know the meaning of "team work". But, that doesn't stop Takao from being his friend. He made a decision, the decision that he thought he'll never regret — he decided to be a person that Midorima will acknowledge. He wants Midorima to see him, to see that this small petite guy, is also good in basketball, is someone that can stand besides him and play basketball with him. 

This decision somehow, it became darker. It turns a mere admiration and acknowledgement to a deep desire or obsession. Takao wants Midorima to see him and only him.

Therefore, he started to stay back. To train with ace-sama, getting to know him, becomes his shadow, and finally he achieved it, becoming someone that Midorima can't live without. The combi that they both came up with. It's something that belongs to him and Midorima. And so, he became greedy. He wants Midorima all for himself. He realized...
This is not just a pure admiration anymore. He falls for his ace-sama, his light, and Takao knows that he's someone that he will never be able to lay his hands on. He cant taint his ace-sama. No, not with this unpure feelings. That's the moment he started to regret his decision. The first regret.

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Next match: Shutoku vs Rakuzan

It has come. The day when everything will change. The day that Takao regretted his decision for the second time. Everything was so tight up in the match against Rakuzan. Akashi with his Emperor Eyes blocking them in every way, pushing Shutoku into an edge. But, Midorima not knowing the meaning of giving up and finally realizes the importance of "team" lashed out with his new move — a combination with his shadow, his hawkeye, Takao. It was perfect, they scored again and again. However, the happiness didn't last long. That moment, that one moment where Akashi blocked the pass. It crushes everyone, especially Takao. The perfect basketball partner that he dreamt of, crushed by that one block.

In the end... They both cried.

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After all the ups and downs, everything went back to peacefulness, it may seem. Basketball training was again back as normal, classes as usual. Even the GoM seems to be restored their former relationship. Everyone has been keeping in touch with the rest. All seems like how it used to be, but the Shutoku basketball team knows something is wrong. Their light and shadow has not been in good.. urmm how you do say it.. Like the chemistry between them both were not there. The combi they both created, somehow they cant do it anymore. Maybe the shock from Shutoku-Rakuzan match still lingering, but it shouldn't be taking such a long time. Takao realized this too and he knows that it is his fault. For some reason, he cant perform that move with Midorima anymore. That match, that block, that crying face, it all burned into his head and he couldnt take it out from his mind. Nobody know this but he's been having nightmare all the time about Midorima crying. He cant take it anymore... The pain he felt for not being able to be with Midorima was incomparable with the pain he felt just by looking at Midorima's crying face. There is no joy in playing basketball anymore. He cant concentrate, he cant perform the combi, he no longer someone that's worth standing right beside Midorima, he no longer someone that can be acknowledged by his light. He lost everything.

And so.... Takao did something. He made another decision. The decision that he thinks will make everything better.

Haha~ but sometimes, things just wont go according to your plan. Isnt that right?? And this time, Takao will face his third upcoming regret. And it wont be a good one.

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Holding the envelope, Takao waited outside the staff room contemplating about his decision. Wanted to hand that little white paper to the coach was not something easy to do. Not for someone that love the sport, not for Takao at least. He didnt know what the coach will do to the letter but he is ready to receive any consequences out of it, at least that's what he thought.

Never once he thought that coach will tell Midorima about it. Never once he thought that Midorima will confront him about it too. And never once he thought that he will expect to hear such words out of Midorima's mouth, his light, his ace-sama, his crush.

"I found something that i love more, Takao. It's you."

Never once he thought, he will hear such confession in his life.

Holding the envelope, Takao decided to walked into the staff room. And "Club Resignation Form" was written on the envelope.

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Author's note**
Sorry for the late update. I've been having writer's block XP i didnt know what to write after the second part, and so i stopped. I thought i would stop this story but it seems like i cant do so. And after a loooooong break, suddenly i've got an epiphany and now im continuing the story. But i dont want to promise another update soon enough, coz i dont want to give empty promises. So just bear with me if you like the story. And i hope you guys understand what's been happening so far. Im not really good at explaining stuffs as you can read. I write what i think of at that time so it may seems weird. But, i do hope you enjoy it. Thanks for reading it!!

I've made some changes to this, hope y'all still like it.