Sorry, please wake up. [Revised]

Holding on for too long

"What is this?? What's the meaning of this? I.. I love Takao?" (Please refer to "Losing It")

After the flashback, the tall guy has a moment of disbelief and was out of it for awhile. First off, he's in a place that was not known of, adding to that, he is all by himself. No where to go and so far having been able to hear only Takao's voice, he's been holding on to his sanity. But, right now, this flashback that he just had, what's the meaning of it? He cannot fathom it as well. Feeling his knees getting weaker, he dropped down. "T-takao.." was the only thing he can murmured of right now as he clutched his left chest feeling the beating of his heart once again.

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It's been a month ever since the accident that happened at the junction near Shutoku High. The news spread out so far and so fast when their basketball ace has been hit by a fast approaching drunk driving male. But, that was not all to it. There is so much more happening behind the scene that leads to the accident that night. This and that and it has been causing a whole lot of problem to one particular person. Takao, a once cheerful, full of mischief, the ball of joy that enlighten the mood wherever he goes, has been living like a zombie. Dragging his empty shell day to day from home to school to hospital then to home again has cost him a lot. He's getting thinner and the eye bags that formed was not helping him to appear energetic at all.

"Takao.." The captain of Shutoku called out to him one day after the basketball training. "Are you going to see Midorima?"

"Hmm~ Ahhh.. yes senpai" he answered dejectedly while looking out to the moon.

"I think you better go home, Takao. You don't look so good after all." Miyaji frowned.

"Hmm~Ahhh.. yes senpai" the same answer he gave before he turned and walked out.

Just then, Miyaji grabbed Takao's arm and stopped him on his track. "I.. I heard everything that night.. I know what happened, Takao."

Takao was jerked to face his senpai and hearing those words coming out from the mouth of Shutoku's captain doesnt seem to make any difference to Takao at all when his expression does not change at all.

"Hmm~ Ahhh.. that night..." he says, "So you've heard everything, Miyaji-senpai.." he faced his captain and wriggles his arm out from his hold. "So you see.. it's my fault. That's all there is to it." His face was blank and no emotion was shown when he blurted out those words.

Miyaji was taken aback when he saw that. It's like Takao is not Takao anymore. He's not in there, right now, the real Takao has went into hiding and Miyaji knew that if Midorima is not getting up from his coma, Takao will be gone for sure. Something needs to be done somehow and when he realized, Takao has long gone from the gymnasium. All that's left were Takao's word ringing in his head, "So you see.. it's my fault. That's all there is to it." Miyaji clenched his fist and for the first time he feels that he's at his wits end for not being able to help his juniors.

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"You're here again, Takao-kun?!" A nurse exclaimed when she saw Takao entering the ward room #106.

Takao nodded to the nurse and in his hand he hold an idol fan. "Is that his lucky item for today?" Again, he nodded as he took a seat beside the bed and a comatose Midorima.

The nurse sighed at this scene. It's been the same everyday after Midorima was admitted into the hospital, Takao has been coming and visit Midorima without fail, exactly at 6.30pm.

Just like every other day, Takao has brought something for Midorima, something different everyday. He will bring a new one and brought the old one back. Not just that, Takao will bring a can of Shiruko as well and placed it on the bedside. It's like a ritual already.

The nurse observed Takao with his so called "ritual".

"First.. He'll open the can of Shiruko and placed it on the bed side."

"Second.. He'll put the "lucky item" in Midorima-kun's hand. If it's too big, he'll hold it for him instead. But, since today it's a fan, he'll definitely put it in Midorima-kun's hand." Just then, Takao did exactly like what she said.

"Third.. He'll look at Midorima-kun for exactly 5 minutes.. 5..4..3..2..1.. right before he said.."
"Im sorry, Shinchan.." Takao said it, the same time as the nurse mouthed it as well.

It is this scene that gets the nurse everytime. Although she doesn't know what happened, but she at least can understand that something has happened with these two boys that leads Takao-kun to be so guilty about it and he's not forgiving himself unless Midorima-kun forgives him. She feels bitter just to see these two boys. Feeling worried for Takao-kun because it's evident that Midorima-kun being comatose is not doing any good to him. Day by day, he appears more lethargic than the day before. Everyone can see that Takao-kun is not eating well and has not been sleeping well. Obligated as she is as a nurse, she decided to walk over to Takao-kun and talked to him.

"Takao-kun.. may i speak with you for a bit?" she interrupted Takao in his "ritual".

Takao startled by the interruption and looked at the nurse. Fear decorated his face as he stood up and grab both her arms, "Is everything ok? Is Shinchan ok? What is it? He's doing ok right? Nothing is wrong right?" His grip tightens around the arms of the nurse as he gets anxious and without his knowing he's been raising his voice to a higher pitch as well.

Hurt by his hold, the nurse let out a small shriek. "Takao-kun.. it hurts!! Takao-kun!!!" she struggles as she tries to be freed from Takao.

Realizing that he's hurting the nurse, Takao immediately let go and slumped down to his seat. "I-i'm s-sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry nurse-chan. I'm sorry.." he repeatedly says it as his tears finally flows out.

"That's it Takao-kun. You've been holding it for too long. You need to let it out at least once in awhile. So.." she comforted as she put her hand on his shoulder, "just for today.. let it out. Nobody is judging you here. And.." she looked over to Midorima-kun, "Im pretty sure that your friend over here doesn't want you to feel this way either.. Look at him, Takao-kun."

Still letting his tears flow, he looked over to Midorima.. Just then, he saw something and it made him feeling crushed from the inside out. A scene that he never expecting..

His Shinchan is shedding tears too.

"Shinchan... i-i.. I'm sorry Shinchan!! I'm sorry!" Takao cried out, feeling that for once there is a slim hope that his Shinchan is getting better.

"I'll leave you two to it then, Takao-kun. I believe all these while, Midorima-kun has been trying to be better and definitely.. He heard everything you've said. So don't worry. Just.. keep talking to him like you always did. And believe in him as well." The nurse pat his back as she delivers those comforting words to Takao. She believes that whatever may happen next, these two will be happy again.

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Meanwhile... still trapped in the dark surrounding..

"Stupid Takao.. Stop being so lifeless already! Do you have any idea how much I want to hold you right now and tell you everything is ok?? I'm coming back Takao.. Just wait for me for a little while.." he says as he shed his tears as well.

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Author's note:
Sorry for the late update!! I hope you guys will love this one. I cant wait to finish this one up!! And i sincerely hope that i can end it well for these two. Please look forward for what happen next! Thanks for reading it. -Lea