Adopted By Phan

2.2

A/N: Thank you for 1K reads! I'm going back to school tomorrow so expect either really, really long chapters with one update a week, or small chapters with three updates a week. Let me know! :D

Phil POV

I heard the front door slam and closed the book I was reading. A few moments later Dan wanders into our room and lies down face first on the bed. I stroke his hair silently until I speak up.

"How did it go?"

"Fine." He mumbled incoherently, his voice being absorbed by the bed sheets. I let out a quiet chuckle.

"What did the psychiatrist say?" I re-phrase, hoping for a more-detailed answer.

"Back on the anti-depressants." He mumbled again. I nodded, despite the fact he couldn't even see me. I continued stroking his hair until his breathing softened and I assumed he had fallen asleep. I sighed in a sort of sadness, I suppose.

Dan didn't need this. I mean, no one did. It wasn't exactly a good thing that Aaron died. But I really didn't know how Dan was going to get through this. His subscribers, well, our subscribers don't really know anything about Dan's depression.

Well, I suppose some might know if they've been fans since 2009. I don't think it's a big issue if they do know, I was contemplating asking Dan if he could make a video on it. His fans really do worry sometimes, and he knows they do. Sometimes he'll accidentally say too much in a live stream and he'll fret for a few days after; purely because he knows how worried his fans get.

I sighed and smiled down at the younger boy who lay in front of me. I got up quietly, being careful not to rock the bed and began pulling his jeans down. Not in that way. I chuckled slightly to myself at the thought and folded his jeans up into our dresser.

I pulled out a pair of his black trackies and slid them over his legs, before covering him with the duvet and placing a pillow underneath his head. He snuggled down slightly, despite it being only four o'clock. I decided to go and edit the gaming video we had just recorded. I doubt Dan would want to.

These anti-depressants just tire him out; physically, mentally and emotionally. It hurts me, to see him like this. But I can't do anything. He will be back to his normal self soon, he just needs some time. I switch off the TV after becoming bored with the video and the crap reality shows.

Walking into the kitchen I pull out an 'easy cook' rice and sauce and begin cooking it. Fifteen minutes later I hear Dan arise from our bedroom, and by now it's about seven o'clock. His hair is slightly curly and his top slightly crumpled from sleep.

He yawns and rubs his eyes as I turn off the cooker to turn around to face him. He opens his arms and makes grabby gestures - to which I can only think he means he wants a hug. I smile and wrap my arms around him, as he does the same to me. He nuzzles into my neck and places a single kiss there before pulling out.

"I made dinner." I grin. He smiles back at me.

"I noticed."

"Come on, let's eat and watch Attack On Titan; I feel deprived." I giggle.

Twenty minutes later and we're both on our laptops on the sofa, with one space in between us.

"Phil?" Dan says.

"Yeah?" I reply, with my eyes still glued to the screen.

"Where's the SD card? I was going to start editing the gaming video tonight." He explains as I turn to look at him.

"Oh, I uh- already did it while you were napping this evening." I say, almost sheepishly.

"You little shit, I told you to let me do it!" He protested jokingly.

"Oops." I giggled. He shook his head and fake-slapped me. We sat in silence for a few minutes before I gathered up the courage to asked Dan about the video he should make. I know it shouldn't take me courage to ask my boyfriend of six years to make a video. But either way, I was a bit nervous.

"Dan?"

"Phil?" He retorted, mimicking my voice. I rolled my eyes slightly.

"Do you ever think you should make a video explaining why you're sad sometimes? And why-"

"I'm always sad, Phil." He chuckled light-heartidly. I rolled my eyes again and continued.

"I just hate seeing you worried after you say something in a live stream that might hint at your anxiety or depression. It hurts me as well, so all I'm saying is that you should make a video just explaining why you're like what you're like sometimes." I finished.

He stayed silent for a minute before nodding slowly. I smiled and grabbed his hand reassuringly.

"Can you get my camera? I want to get it over and done with before I've taken my tablets. Otherwise I'll be moody or sad and won't say things correctly."

I nodded and jogged into the office before setting up Dan's camera, his lighting and his laptop before he came in to straighten his hair.

"I'll be next door if you need anything." I smiled. He nodded and began recording. All I could hear through the walls was Dan doing his intro a few times before it went quiet.

"Phil?" Dan shouted to me. I paused my game, got up and peeked my head round Dan's door.

"C-can you help me? Please? I-I don't know what to say and-" I shushed him with a hug from behind and a small kiss on the cheek.

"Start with why you're making the video." I suggested.

"Well why am I making the video?" I asked in response. I bit my lip slightly.

"Well, I suppose to help them understand why you don't upload regularly sometimes, why you don't tweet as much. Help them understand what's going on in your mind. They'll support you one-hundred percent, I know it." I finished. He nodded again and began talking.

He briefly explained about his bullying issues when he was a teen, and then about the 2012 break down, and now everything with Aaron. Of course the fans knew what had happened to Aaron, a hashtag trended for six days with lovely messages.

We decided to keep his channel up, as a sign as respect but also so the fans could watch his videos if they missed him or something. When he had finished I had tears brimming in my eyes, and so did Dan. He finished the video with a touching few words that made the tears spill.

"I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Phil, not only is he my long-term boyfriend, but he has also been my best friend for that time as well. Phil is the one who encouraged me to make my first video, Phil is the one who supports me through everyone, Phil is the one who I confided in when I needed someone, and I still can. I will be eternally grateful to you, Phil. Thank you."

My head was in my hands and I was trying to hide my tears, although as we watched the final edit of the video back it was obvious I was crying. I didn't want to fans to see that, though. I did try to persuade Dan to cut it out, but he insisted it was cute.

And here we are now, sending out the tweet that the video had been uploaded.