Deranged

Chapter 3

That pungent smell, yes that one the cheap perfume, I should have smelt it since, I really wasn't expecting this. Why didn't you tell me it was here, Beatrice of course, she's just thrown me off, I really don't like to be thrown off. Fine I'll ease up, no I don't hate Beatrice, I'd just rather not be in her presence. It's not your fault, I'm just pissed.

I know I said I don't feel but that's just an act, I pull of quite well, but if our friendship is gonna progress we must be honest with each other. I do get flashes of emotions, very brief ones, but I have never had flashes by love or joy and that's the truth. It's quite sad actually a fraud, besides I told you my secret, now tell me yours, come on tell me, why won't you tell me, oh that's your big secret, oh that's your secret, that is so rich. You haven't even begun to know who I truly am, to do that we must journey together for quite a while, only then will you know my deep dark secret.

OK you have to go now, I need to put on a show, yeah I can act pretty well, I guess it's a talent. Now vamoose or we'll be here all day, and trust me I have better things to do, and no they don't include watching porn, get your head out of the gutter, but seriously bye.
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"Come in Steve" beckoned Amanda she has such a lovely voice it's calming, but stuff like that does not matter to Steve.

"Why is Beatrice here?"

"Shut the door behind you" John is sounding so scruffy, he might have just finished his daily smoke.

"Why is she here?"

"I'm here to hel....." Beatrice was cut short by Steve

"Shut UP!, since when did you care about what happens to me, wouldn't you rather be somewhere else, I for one would prefer it if you were elsewhere."

"This is progress, you're expressing your feelings"said John.

"Yeah whatever, you say John, now keep quiet for a bit the adults are talking" such passion in Steve's eyes look at him, if you didn't  know better, you would think he actually gave a fuck, but we know better don't  we.

"You see how he's  like Amanda, he doesn't  have regard for anyone not even me, his mother" said a sobbing Beatrice.

"You're not my mother, I've told you this before, you're  just a whore, who gave birth to me". If you look closely you can almost see a part of Steve that doesn't  wanna harm her, if you look close enough with a big ass NASA telescope, but there's  something there.

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Beatrice is making it rain, literally, her face is leaking, I would feel bad for her, but friend she  deserves it, hey I'm  not a bad guy, am I a bad guy for thinking about myself, I'm I a bad guy for saying the truth as it is, I didn't think so either.

See John the way he's  tapping his foot I can tell he needs another stick, I think this meeting will just have to go on a little longer.
                     
"Amanda, Steve is getting out of hand, I think he should be sent back" What is Beatrice thinking, I can't  go back there.

"He's  making progress Amanda at least he's  opening up to us" there's  Amanda with her calm soothing voice. She's making sense.

"Yes, let's listen to Amanda, she's the only one Making Sense", the sooner this is over with, I can go back to what I was doing, i can't seem to remember , so what's the Point of having you around if you can't remember, I'm sorry this isn't about you. Doesn't John want this too, he can go and have his smoke, the time intervals between the taps are reducing and he's  starting to sweat, oh this is getting fun.