Confused

chapter 7

Lunch with johnny was just amusing as every other time i spend with him , i actually have a huge crush on him i mean who wouldn't his overly nice, his caring, his undeniably good looking, incredibly funny, he comes from a decent family and last but not least he is a doctor, in other words he is totally husband material , not that i thought about marrying him well i did a few time , dear friends who wouldn't do so when you see those deep brown  eyes ,  small lips i adore his hair i just wish my hair can get that same dirty blond , lastely those amazing abs , anyone wonder how i know , was this time when I entered the changing room and he was freaking SHIRTLESS , the tempter in that room went from winter cold to hell fire , i don't know how hot can hell be but it might be close to that , some might say i was dating mike and i shouldn't be saying nor thinking about this kind of stuff but apart from few dates most of our relationship was over phone or he'd be giving me the cold shoulder for you-already-know-what , now that i understand that we couldn't make each other happy and it's obvious that i wasn't satisfied i felt like i m acceptting second best , while i deserve someone like johnny to respect how i think and not try to persude me into doing things , i just keep walking to the coffeeshop good thing i m there early, i sit on a table near the window text the girls to tell them i m already there, I order strawberry milkshake then the WiFi mark pop up in my phone screen , cool i need some updates i ll just geek with my phone until they come
I have few notifications in Facebook and a message from brayn ,
Brayn: i'm looking forward to it :D
That was the last thing he said
He is talking about the date cool, i receive another a new message
Brayn : hey Sarah want to meet up today ?!
That's straightforward to it huh !!! Or maybe i m the turtle here did i mention that i like things to go slow, i just like to have the time to think , analyse and conclude , i tape back
Me : hey ! I m sorry i can't now i have a meeting with my teacher
Brayn: cool maybe when you finish ?!
Me: i don't know how much time it can take !!
No wasn't making excuses or anything we really have loads to do
Brayn: what's so hard about it you'll give him your work progress and he'll give you notes then we get to meet :D
Huh seriously if that's it, why don't we meet now !! I really wanted to type that but nice me is on charge today no sarcasm !!
I just reply
Me: no it's not like that we take step by step in work progress so i might be late
Brayn : well , i'm free , if the teacher tiers you tell me so i can buy you an ice cream :p
The ":p" saved him really does he think i can't buy myself one , wait i m just overreacting he is just being nice
Me: alright
Brayn : here is my phone number +***********
Did he just gave me his phone number !!! Let me miss with him
Me: what am i supposed to do with it ?!
Little harsh i know
Brayn : sorry i just thought you could text me if you are done in case i m not online
Poor guy
Me: just kidding !
See i have this evil side that comes to take control every now and then but i m nice in general .
The teacher and girls come in i put my phone away and concentrate on work, after what feels like forever we leave after devising work parts , i have to work on the last version , correction and stuff we are almost done , thank god!!
I get home and girls ask me to go out and hang a bit it's already 8:30 pm so even know i m tired i decided to go out anyway and buy some chips , candies, chocolate .. I want to spoil my self tonight as every other night , that means more workouts in gym or a long run which i don't mind cause physicall activity helps me in forgetting stress and shut down all kind of emotions , as we set in a bench to rest a little and take advantage of the fresh air , it was one of those night when you feel overwhelmed for no obvious reason , like if something good is gonna happen .

I log in my facebook as always Brayn is there he left me two massages asking if i m done i text him back saying that i m having a round with the girls , he replays after few minutes wondring why he isn't invited so i just tell him we are out for fresh air and to buy some grocery , after that i wish him good night we head home ,i change my clothes and i start packing for tomorrow since i have a wedding to attend, after all is set i take my food and just watch a lame movie when i feel i m sleepy i brush my teeth and sleep .

Next morning i wake up on my phone ringtone -Britney can be so annoying- i answer without bothering to see the ID because i still can't open my eyes yet
Cat: Sarah where are you ?! You re not still asleep right?!
Holy craaap i hardly open my eyes to glance at my alarm it's 11 am and i m supposed to meet cat at 12 o'clock in bus station i just do my best to cover my sleepy voice.
Me: no no i m wide awake i m euh i m doing my hair
Cat : yeah right you have 30 minutes to get ready if you don't get here in time i ll fucking leave without you !!!!
She hangs up i know she won't leave so I slowly leave my bed to take a shower , after that I drink a glass of milk not in the mood to eat anything I just wear my clothes I wear a cute colorful shirt and a clair blue jeans along with matching heels and hand bag , I grab my small suitcase and leave and during that I got over 40 calls from cat I just ignored her I got there at 1:30 not that late , our bus is at 2 pm so I'm cool
In the bus i talk to Brayn seem like this guy is always online huh
Brayn: hi how are you ?!
Me : I'm fine and you ?
Brayn: i'm good too thanks , what's your plans for today , such a hot day !!
Dude you have no idea i'm sweating and melting in the bus no air conditioner it makes me want to cry
Me : I'm heading to my friends wedding I'll be back tomorrow and maybe we can meet !
Brayn : cool , I didn't want to ask you so you won't assume I'm a stalker or a pervert hahah
He just made me laugh so hard
Me: no , didn't cross my mind now that you said it I'll start thinking about it hahaha
Brayn: LOL well just call me when you come back tomorrow you have my phone number right ?!
Me: yes it's still in the conversation
Brayn : well here it is +********** don't bother looking for it
Me : thank you , well i m gonna sleep a bit i m getting dizzy talk to you later
Brayn: have a safe trip.