Eventually Jessica was all we talked about. ill admit I got nervous but I pushed the feeling down. That's the thing jess (Jessica) and I were not alike in the slightest. She was loud, confident, were I was quiet and observant with a book in hand. People didn't give a shit about me. I wasn't seen as threat but as the quiet kid. being the 'quiet kid' allowed me to get dirt on the right people.
Anyways my friends got even more curious. They thought and talked. Then one of them asked 'is she even real' my heart stopped. But then a girl who I knew for years aka a liar said she saw her so I was safe. for now at least.
The boy (that I like) pulled me aside on the way to lunch and was like how hes scared. I wanted to stop. Believe I really wanted to...but I couldn't. So I decided to let him be for awhile and to make things look even realer fake blackmail myself. So if I was the victim I couldn't be the attacker. And lets be honest here I'm smarter than. So I was cleared. But that didn't stop the things from happening. That did not stop people getting hurt. That did not stop me for getting hurt.
*I'm currently lying down and typing this. But the thing is I'm crying. I do miss him a lot. But i'm not sure if he misses me. Besides were in h.s now. Maybe its for the best. I'm a monster and should stay away. 4:21 am*
