chapter 5
“Justin, you don’t have to say sorry. It’s not your fault. There was nothing you could do.” I said kissing is cheek.
“I know I just.. if anything goes...bad then I dont want you to have to see how..bad it gets.”
“Justin, Honey. I love you with all my heart. I’ve known you forever and i’ve stuck through everything with you. Im not gonna back out now.” I said smiling reassuring him.
“I love you Mad. You’re the best girlfriend and friend i’ve ever had. I love you” Justin said looking behind me. I turned to see who it was and Patty was walking in. I backed off so Patty could sit next to him.
“What have you found out so far?” She asked taking his hand.
“My cancers back.” He said crying again.
“Oh baby. It’ll be okay.”
“ I know, I just don’t want Madi to see how bad I get and I know she’ll leave even as a friend once she sees what happens. It’s happened before.” he said looking to his abdomen where his pancreas would be.
“I won’t Justin. You shouldn’t even say that. I’ll always be here for you. I promise. Pinky promise.” I said putting up my pinky for him to intertwine with his.
“Well I’m going to the store to pick up somethings. Do you want anything?
“Can you get me a grape gatorade.”
“me too please.” I said. Patty left the room justin took my hand.
“Madeline. I something to ask you.”
“Alright what is it?” I asked smiling and looking into his eyes.
“will you hand me that bag down there first.”
“Oh my god. alright.” I said rolling my eyes and grabbing a purple bag.
“alright. here it goes. Madeline Schneider, will you take this promise ring.”
“Yes! I will justin I love you.” Justin put his hand on my back and I leaned down to kiss him. I gave him my hand and he put the hearted knot ring on my ring finger.
“I pinky promise.” We said in sync smiling. Another doctor came in. One that I hadn’t known the name to.
“Why so smiley?” She said lifting one of the small eyebrows on her fox like face.
“Well you see, there’s one less lonely girl.” Justin said laughing. I slapped his arm lightly.
“Oh I get it because you’re Justin Bieber. Ha! So are you two love birds dating?”
“Yes. The best boyfriend ever just gave me the best gift ever.” I said smiling at my hand.
“Engaged? This young?”
“No no no. I gave her a promise ring.” He lifted up my arm so the fox faced doctor could see.
“Aww. That’s so sweet. And here’s more good news. If we take an ultra sound and if the tumors where we think it is then we could do a surgery to remove the majority of it. We have to get your mothers consent before we can do anything. Is she here?”
“umm no she went to the store to get some snacks and gatorade. I can call her. Madi hand me my phone? its in my pants.” Justin said anxiously. I handed him the phone and he quickly typed in the number and hit the call button. I walked out of the room to find a bathroom. I was so happy that Justin could be cured. at least for a while. I went back in Room 706 and patty was sitting next to him crying.
“What’s the matter?” I asked running to Justin’s side.
“The thing they didn’t tell us about the operation is there’s a fifty percent chance I wont come back.”
“Oh that’s terrible. Are you going to do it.”
“Yes. Im gonna take a leap of faith. I can’t deal with chemo. It hurts, it makes you sick, it makes you want to kill yourself.” Justin said shaking his head.
“alright. I’ll be right there holding your hand. Do you have to be awake?”
“No. I’m glad. I get put into a medicinal coma.”
“I’ll be still here with you though.” I said trying not to show sadness. I didn’t want Justin to know how I really felt about all of this. I didn’t want him to do the surgery at all.
“Hey Justin.”
“Yeah?”
“I don’t want you to do the surgery. I want you to do what you want but I just can’t except the fact I could lose you and not get you back. When you would probably have a better chance with chemo.”
“Hey mom can you give us a little while?” Justin said motioning his mom to the door.
“Im just saying you can do what you want. Im just not going to like it.”
“I know you wouldn’t Madeline. I just hate having the chemo it makes you feel worse than you do just normally. I know what I have to do. I’ve had many chances in my life and i’m afraid they’re getting slimmer. I’m going to take one that could be my last to make things better. I’m sorry you feel how you do Honey. I love you and you know that. When I’m in surgery I want you to be the person with me over my mom.”
“Alright....I understand I guess. I love you Justin with all my heart. You can do whatever you want and I’ll be okay, I may not like it at first but if it means making you completely better than go for it.” I said smiling. I wasn’t going to hold Justin back from making his life better. Patty and a doctor came in and were already having their own conversation.
“Hello Mr. Justin. I am doctor Tomlinson.” He said with a smile taking the hat and mask off. In walked Zayn, Harry, Liam, and Niall.
“Hey Guys! Why are you here?” He said while hugging each of them.
“We had to fly here for a conference and some interviews and we heard about you so we came to visit you.”
“Aww Thanks. You guys are the best.” While Justin and the boys of One Direction were talking all I could do is stand there speechless. I had never actually met them and it was very true that they were much better in person.
“Guys, this is madeline. My girlfriend.” Justin said putting his hand on my back and pulling me closer.
“You mean the one that you’d always talk about how beautiful she is and stuff.” Niall said blushing. The boys lined up and greeted me with either a hug or a kiss on the cheek. Niall was blushing really bad and Harry just kept checking me out. He’s exactly what all the tabloids say. Zayn seemed to have a liking in me also he kept looking at justin and then looking back at me like they were sending telepathic messages talking about me. Zayn came up and whispered something in my ear that I didn’t quite understand.
"What?" i whispered towards him. What he had said had just kept playing over and over in my mind, I couldn't believe one of my boyfriends best friends had just said that. 'Don't worry babe, he'll be gone soon and i'll be right here waiting', those words lingered in my ears, the deepnes of his voice, the warmth of his breath, he seemed so serious but at the same time I was wondering if it was all a joke.
