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This shouldn't be happening. I just want a normal family who don't have problems that can't be solved. Oh yeah, let me introduce myself. My name is James Rockson and I am 15 years old. I was born in Germany but brought to America to be adopted.
My life is chaos right now as you might know from the beginning of my story. As of right now, my parents are dealing with having no money in 2035which is less than a year away and my sister who has been in trouble for 5 years. And also, I have friends who have betrayed me and I'm all stressed out.Let me tell you how this all started.
It was the year of 2030, I was ten years old. I was in third grade. The basic stuff you know? And then there is this girl, you know pretty descent. And she walks in front of my desk and says "hey." And runs away. I thought to myself, wow that was weird! Does she have a crush on me or is she just pulling a prank? Then the next day, I get a note on my desk that says " wanna go out with me?" And it's signed "the girl from yesterday." As I was reading this, I have no idea how a relationship worked. I don't even know what it's like to date a girl. So I went up to her where she was sitting and said "yes."
When I went home that afternoon, I couldn't stop thinking about what I just did. Were my parents going to know?
What are people going to think of me?
I was so surprised also because I was very ugly. I had a bald cut, had glasses and braces. How could someone like me? So after that for the whole year, I kept breaking up with her and we made up and so on.
So then during the summer, I went to this party and I saw my sister who was in 7 grade at the time, she was in a corner with a boy Laying next to her. And my first thoughts were, uh oh.
And I got a little closer and they were laying on each other and holding hands. And I thought to myself, would I ever do that in 7 grade?
  On the first day of school, as I was walking to my homeroom, something caught my eye. Or should I say someone. As I was about to walk into my class, a girl that was a grade above me, walks pass me. My first thoughts are "how do I get her to like me." I think fast, is anyone in my class friends with her. I don't know. Crap. So I say hi to all my friends but then when I sit down, I see it. Crap. Another note! And it says "I miss you."