My hand was throbbing. It didn't hurt when I had direct contact to his face but now, it's swollen. We grabbed our food and walked to the store for a movie night that Ben and I do every couple of days. I wasn't in the mood for it but I didn't want to hurt Bens feeling. I grab a bag of ice and stick my hand in it. The ice made my hand numb, but it still throbbed.
"It was totally worth it" Dani cheers, patting me on the back.
I shrug. It didn't feel right but it didn't feel wrong.
The vibration of my phone makes me jump. I reach into my pocket with my good hand.
"Who is that?" Ben says looking over my shoulder.
I press my lock button and shrug. "No one important"
Ben fixes his face. Dani picks out a movie I've never even heard of, and we head out the store.
I hate this movie. I think it's supposed to be funny but the only way I can indicate that is by Dani and Bens laughter. I can't think about anything but Parker. He really called me a whore. I've been so good so loving to him! And I'm treated like this! I'm spinning. I close my eyes as my hand throbs. Most of the ice has melted, which makes me even more enraged.
"I've got to go" I blurt out. Ben says something before I slammed the door that I couldn't make out. I throw my jacket on and head to the main entrance. The wind in my face is so harsh my lips start to crack.
It's passed curfew so I start to speed walk faster hoping I won't get caught by security. I hit the building and knock the snow off my shoes and head to my room. I can feel the snow melt down my back. Dripping down like blood from a stab wound. I dig in my pockets for my key when I get closer to my hall. A few girls pass me and I give them a generous smile and they do the same as they pass. I find my keys and turn down my hall. I continue to walk finally looking up from the floor. My keys slip out of my hand as if they were lubricated in butter. My eyes darken and my brain shuts off. It's almost as if there was a shooter standing at the opposite side of the hall from me pointing his gun directly at me. Fight or Flight.
"Julie-"
I scoop my keys from the ground and walk toward my door. Ignore him. That's all I have to do. I move passed him quickly. Struggling to find my key trying every single one. One after another failing.
"I'm sorry Julie. I-I didn't mean to. It just came out! It was like.. i don't know an out of body experience, but not the good ones. I tried calling you,to apologize... did you block me".
Click!
Finally!
"Julie"
"What the hell are you doing here" I squeak. It barely came out and surprised me when it did. I turn to face him. There's a huge bruise on his eye and it's swollen shut. I'm taken back by the fact that I didn't know my tiny hands were capable of doing such damage.
"I've been waiting here for like, four hours to apologize. So please listen to me."
