"Just Let Go of Him"

Heartbroken ....

     As I looked down at my phone, a rush of emotions came over me, some made me angry, some sad, some just made me have a feelings

of how not to care anymore, but I refused to let go, I won't , I can't not care. My mind then fixated on this one moment in life that impacted how I now think. The moment was, one day in class this girl turned around, and said "What's wrong" the simple shake of my head, made her turn back around, assuming the conversation was over, I put my eyes down toward my paper, she then turned back around and she said one thing that would change my life forever. She said "Elizabeth you smile less and less everyday." At that moment I then realized she was right. My phone then made a sound, it through off my train of thought. I looked down with all these emotions about to explode, I read the simple word "yes" the emotions overload, my face is wet, these are tears, the following text after says "3 months vs. 3 years" then "I do love you, I've had the biggest crush on you since the 7th grade." Next," but after the whole boyfriend thing, I just lost them." "You know you were talking to other boys, you weren't faithful." He says "I wasn't either but still." "What about the ex-bf, I know you were still talking to him." "What about the other boy?" "The fact that he was trying to put this all on me, was heartbreaking. The fact how he would always tell me "don't play with my emotions", yet he stopped liking me a long time ago. Me knowing that I was faithful to him, there was no need to try and defend myself, his mind was already made. That's when I simply texted him 1 word,"ok." That's the day I decided to learn to play his twisted mind game better than he ever did or ever will. Being heartbroken, emotions floating around everywhere, that's the very moment I went back on my word, and let go of ever caring again. 💔