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Corrine
I was sitting back in the waiting room, waiting for my name to be called so I can face another fear. My knee is bouncing again as I sit next to Ricky. He places his hand on my knee to stop the bouncing.
"You did great last time, Corrine. What are worried about?" Ricky asks, his hand still on my knee. I scrunch my eyebrows at his hand before looking back up at him.
"I don't know what I'll see this time...this is a different fear." I bite at the nail of my thumb.
Ricky finally moves his hand and I can breathe again. Even though he is my friend, anyone else touching me but Eric, doesn't feel right. The door for the room Eric is in finally opens, and Drea comes stumbling out, she shivers and wipes at the tears on her cheeks. I guess the heartless girl is human.
"Corrine. Let's go." Eric says in a monotone voice. Ricky gives me a nod of encouragement as I stand up and walk into the room, Eric shuts the door, and clicks the lock.
He smiles as he turns towards me, scooping me up and kissing my lips and cheeks, causing and unflattering giggle to leave my lips. He spins me around until he falls into the chair with me straddling his lap.
"What's with you today?" I ask, the smile on my face never faltering.
"Am I not allowed to be happy when I see you?" He says.
"Of course, I guess it's just hard for me to be happy when I'm about to get sucked into my worst nightmares." I explain while rubbing my hands over his hard chest.
"I'll be right here. You need to get through it the way a Dauntless would." His hands squeeze my hips and pull me down against him. My eyes squeeze shut at the feeling, a dark chuckle coming from him as I do.
"I wish you could come in with me. I would feel safe then. Not afraid." I lean forward pecking his lips.
"If you're going to be Dauntless, Corrine, you have to do this. I'll protect you with my life, but you have to do this." He encourages me more. I sigh loudly, knowing that he's right.
"Okay. Let's get on with it."
Eric presses another kiss to my lips before he stands up with me in his arms, and places me back onto the chair. I grip the arms with my nails, my knuckles turning white as he approaches me with the needle.
"Good luck." He smirks. I take one final deep breath before I feel the needle puncture my skin and I'm sucked into my own mind.
When I open my eyes, I'm standing on the metal bridge in one of the corridors. Water droplets leak from the ceiling and drop onto my face. I look around and see no one. I can't hear anything but the water droplets hitting the metal.
I turn around a little too quickly, my boot sliding across the slick metal, I fall forward, hitting my chest against the bridge with a thud.
"Not again. No no no." I whisper to myself, as my fingers grip at the bars.
"Help me!" I shout. "Please!"
My fingers slip and slide and I can barely hold on. Then I hear footsteps above me, and my brother comes into site.
"Finn! Please pull me up!" I ask desperately. But he doesn't stop, he merely looks down at me a moment before he continues walking across the bridge.
"No! Don't leave me!" My heart is beating so hard, the simulation will never stop.
Two more sets of feet come from above me know. I grunt and scream because Im continuing to slip.
"Look, she's falling." Marie says to Ricky as the pass over me.
"She cheated her way through training, surely she can cheat her way off of this bridge." Ricky laughs and Marie joins in, kicking some water into my face.
"No. Please." I sob again. The hurt I feel now, is almost unbearable. The thought of my friends being so cruel, that they think of me that way, rips apart my insides. I'm about to give up.
"Corrine?" A voice I recognize instantly says.
"Eric! Eric help, I'm going to fall." I beg.
"Why would I help you?" He stands above me, looking down with his hands behind his back.
"Stop messing around and pull me up!" I shout at him, my arms and fingers are about to give out.
"You really thought I cared about you? That I give a damn if you fall into that chasm? Oh...you really did think that?" He throws his head back in an evil cackle.
"Stop saying those things!" I put the last of my strength into holding on now, I won't last another ten seconds.
"Bye, Corrine." Eric stands up straight before he brings the heel of his boot down on my fingers. I scream in pain before I realize I'm falling to my death. The darkness sucks me in again.
I sit up gasping for air again in the chair. Flailing my arms and grabbing at my chest.
"Corrine! Open your eyes!" Eric shouts.
I fall still, and open my eyes slowly, Eric is gripping shoulders trying to hold me still.
"Don't touch me!" I push away and jump out of the chair.
"That was a simulation baby, it wasn't real." He steps towards me.
"Don't. Do not touch me Eric."
"You're overreacting. You have to know I would never do that to you."
I step back and unlock the door, fiddling for the handle.
"I just...I just need time to process this..I'm sorry." I finally fumble the handle open.
"Corrine, please." Eric tries to walk towards me but I slam the door shut and run away from the room.
"Corrine?" My brother stands and reaches for me.
"No Finn! Leave me alone." I rush passed him and make a beeline for the initiate sleeping quarters.
I'm scared. I'm scared out of my mind, even if it wasn't real it still shook me to the core.
I sit on my bed hugging my knees, any time I shut my eyes all I can see is his face and the look he had before he sent me plunging to my death. He didn't care. He was a heartless monster who killed to get what he wanted.
What was I doing? The Eric I've come to know...fell in love with...would never hurt me. The Eric in the simulation wasn't real, that's not the person he really is.
I breathe in deeply, calming my nerves that were stretched to the brink.
I needed to find Eric. And apologize for letting the fear overcome me. If I didn't get it together soon, I wasn't going to make it through this part of initiation, and I'd lose everything. I'd lose Eric, and my heart can't even bare the thought.
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Recklessly (Divergent Fanfic) #Completed
Fanfiction"She holds matches recklessly in her hands." Faction. It's what defines you. The world is not the same anymore. The only way to survive is to find your place in the factions. Corrine Minor is Abnegation. She and her twin brother have always known wh...
