Ch.1 What I Want, Is NOT What I Want~A True Love Story of a Teen

     "I had sex with her." he said.

     My heart sank. "What the fuck! You said you wouldn't do anything like that! You're the fucking one who always says ' I'm a good person. I wouldn't do anything to hurt you.' Well look what tha fuck you did!"

     "You're the one freaking out I don't even know if she's preggers or not!"

     "Well I've had enough, I'm done with you."

     I knew I couldn't stay mad at him though. I could try so hard, but I still could never stay mad at him. He cheated on me- I was mad at him for only two days! Then we got back together. I guess when you like, well love, someone enough you take all the shit that they give you because you think somewhere deep you're imature brain (that fell for the guy... AGAIN!) that there is hope and that he still loves you, he just slipped up. I was pretty pissed off I guess, but he ment more than me and he just ruined another girls life (she was known as a whore because she did drugs and illegal shit,and I've been completely sober for all my life...well most of it anyways, and always has the pregnancy scare about evrey morning when she woke up.

     So yeah, I consider him to be the manipulator, and me? Well im the manipulee.

     "I love you." he texted me while i was watching that stupid TV.

    I was pretty siked, but I couldn't say that back. He had just fucked up my life really bad (I mean just about every guy i dated fucked up my life. They almost all cheat on me. I guess I'm not good enough. I shouldn't even fucking try! I mean I'm not the girl who'd been outside in the park with all her friends, making out with her boyfriend.)

     I think nows a good time to tell you guys the truth- I've never kisses anybody. Cause I guess I never liked anyone enough to go to the park and make out with my boyfriend infront of all my friends. But he's gunna have to deal with it.

     In the past few months I don't really "love" him as much as I used to. I guess cause what I wanted, well, wasn't what I wanted after all.  

     ~~Hey guys its mee. If you like this Chapter so far then like and mayb i might just maybe.... write the next chapter. and this is a real story!! this is a story about me andd a boy that was a grade ahead of me and all his friends made fun of him cause he was dating an 8th grader and he was a freshman. so thats your story behind the story. well if you dont shut me up ill keep on rambeling on... so bye:D~~