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A letter for Louis (Larry Stylinson One shot)

Dear Louis,

I know you're going to think that this is your fault, that you should have tried harder but that couldn't be further from the truth. You did everything you could, you gave me your love, even if it wasn't the way i had wanted you too. I'm sorry i couldn't stay with you for forever like we had promised but i couldn't take it anymore. No matter how hard i tried to convince myself to stay. You were my only reason to live and when you told me you never wanted to see me again, i'd lost it. I've taken a whole bottle of pills, they're starting to kick in but i couldn't go without saying goodbye, that's why i'm writing this too you.

I remeber when we first met, in the bathroom? You were so shy and quiet, who would have known that you'd turn out to be so loud? I remember feeling like my heart had stopped as soon as i saw you walk through that door, though it didn't seem like it, the bathroom was-to me- the most romantic place to be. You walked in without looking up, slightly hunched over and minding your own business. I feel stupid for washing my hands for so long just so i could wait for you to come out of the toilet but i did, i don't regret it either. You came and stood next to me, there was plenty of other unoccupied sinks but you chose the one next to me. I felt like someone had just released animals from the zoo and now they were all charging in my stomach, as i got to know you, the feelings got worse. Do you remember the first words i said? I said "Wow this soap is shit." You laughed but tried not to, i've always loved your laugh. Then we continued to talk, i wanted to stay there forever but we couldn't.

Then we were put together as a band, i was the first person you hugged. To tell you the truth i was happier that i got to spend more time with you than that i actually got through. Singing had always been my dream but when i met you, you became my new dream. I didn't think i could fall that easily, let alone for a boy. I tried to hide it and stay away from you but you were adiment that i was going to be your best friend, you've always been pushy.

Time went on and more rumours were made about us, they didn't seem to bother you at all, "Just harmless fun" You'd say. Then it really did start to effect you, you changed suddenly into thinking anyone who thought Larry was real or wanted it to be real was worth you hating. That meant you hated me. Though that's not what hurt the most, what really hurt is what happened today.

I told you i loved you...and then you told me to get out. Why? I'm sorry i ruined our friendship, i just couldn't take it anymore. I see you with El everyday, acting all lovey dovey but you're different when you were with me. I had to tell you, even though i knew you wouldn't feel the same. Then it got worse. You tweeted that girl "Larry is the biggest load of bullshit i've ever heard." That's when i knew, i could never get you back but i can't live my life without you.

Take care of Niall, he's only a baby really. Everyone hates to see him cry, so try to be strong for him. Tell him, he was the happiest and hungriest boy i knew, just to see him smile. He needs to keep smiling, or else no-one will. Be strong for him.

Liam, needs to know that i love him as a brother. I love all of them like that. Tell him to stay strong too because if he starts then Zayn will and then it'll be like a flood. Liam's strong and will help you all, just don't lose him.

Zayn will take care of you all too, he'll stay strong because he knows it's right. Don't let him and Perrie split, she makes him happy, you all deserves to be happy. I don't want any tears over me, too many have fallen today.

The pills are starting to kick in now, my hand won't stop shaking. I'm sorry for anything you can't read, my eyes are too blurry now.

Finally Louis. I guess i should start by saying sorry. I'm sorry for leaving you but you have the boys and Eleano, they'll be there for you. I'm sorry that i ruined everything, i'm sorry that i couldn't stay for longer with you. And last, i'm sorry for loving you. I know me telling you wasn't fair, i shouldn't have put that on you. I just want you to know that none of this is your fault, i did this to myself, you can't force someone to love you. Please don't cry over me like i did for you, i'm not worth your beautiful tears. You need to believe in youself more, follow your heart. I followed mine and it gave me you, i couldn't have been happier.

I just want to say i love you Louis, forever and always.

Harry x

Louis read the letter, his tears mixing with Harry's on the paper. The boy stared at his best friends body in front of him and kissed his fragile lips softly. To think, he'd come to say he loved him too.

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Oh my gravy i'm sorry i wrote this

I just can't