Fall

4

" what ? " " Emily ! You've got lung cancer . " I sat frozen , my heart was thumping in my chest and I was out cold . I heard the line go flat and I was dead . Gone .

" AHHHHHHHH " I woke up screaming . " Emily what's wrong ? " " is there something wrong with me ? " " no . Nothing's wrong em . You were holusonating and you couldn't breathe properly . " " thank god . " " why what's wrong . "

" it's nothing " " Emily... " " shawn I'm fine ... When can we go home " " umm yeah " I got up and shawn handed me a bag full of clothes . I went to the bathroom and got changed into the sweatpants and baggy shirt .

I walked back out and went out to the waiting rooms . " let's go " I mumbled and grabbed the keys that were on jacks lap . I made my way to the car and got right into the back .. I keep end up having to many accidents I'm scared there's gonna be something seriously wrong with me .

I brought my knees to my chest and dug my face in between them .. I silently cried all the way back to the hotel . I got out after everyone and took the stairs rather than the elevator . And we're like on floor 12 .... I just wanted time alone ..

I go to our room and opened the door . I made my way to the bathroom and got into the shower fully clothed and turned the water on . It's called stress if you didn't know and at the moment that stress is taking over my whole body and it's not helping me at all .

I leant my back against the wall and slid down crying , I brought my knees to my chest like before and just sat there crying . I heard the bathroom door open but I ignored it.

I heard someone getting into the shower and they sat down next to me . " Emily .. What's wrong ? " I heard Cameron ask next to me .

I turned to him and just let my head fall into his shoulder . I cried and cried and it was just non-stop flow of salty water drops running down my face to the creases of my mouth . " everything cam . Everything seems to be a pain in the ass all of the time . "

" what do you mean , " " whenever I try to make everyone else's life better it makes mine worse .. The worst part is having a famous boyfriend. .... Sometimes i wish I never met shawn and sometimes I am thankful that I did but it's just the feeling of whenever me and shawn are together there's just a swarm of people . Most of them people know me as a slut . And whore and skank and ass and the useless girl who shawn only felt sorry for .. Sometimes I wish I could just walk away from all of this but I know it will make everything a hundred times worse . Cameron I don't know what to do anymore . I just don't " he hugged me really tight .

" I know Emily . I know I've felt the same way before , but if you keep locking yourself away in the world of stress and hate it will only get worse than it was before . Open yourself out to people ... Make yourself who you want to be not who people want you to be . Yourself is the best person you could be . " I hugged him tighter than before .

" thanks cammy bear . Your now my new best friend " he laughed and got up and turned the shower off . He held his hand out and I grabbed it and he helped me up .

I grabbed a towel and walked out . I saw shawn on the bed asleep . It looked as if he were crying . I saw his eyes were that pale red , and the look of drying tear stains on his cheeks . The top of his nose was red and he was cuddling my jumper .

I grabbed some clothes and went back to the bathroom and got changed into my sweats and a cropped Starbucks shirt . I got onto the bed and grabbed the jumper from him . I replaced it with me .

" I will love you forever shawn . I promise you I won't keep secrets or lies from you and I will never ever think of replacing you . Your the one I want to be with . . I love you Mr . Shawn Peter Raul Mendes . "
I whispered quietly into the crook of his neck and slowly fell asleep .

Next day -

I woke up to shawn no longer beside me . I got up and went to my suitcase and grabbed my leather , hot pink skater skirt , a white , floral crop top and my black knee high socks , I saw my silver studded Jeffrey Campbell heel boots like mahogany's I put them all on and but my hair up into a half up and half down .. Seeings my hair is like mahogany's I   Grabbed a pair of her silver studded diamond cat ears and slid them on .

For make up I put some mascara , eyeliner , and a dark berry lip stick . I turned around and noticed a little note .

~ Emily ,
I thought you would have read this sooner but I wanted to give you a little quest today .. Just to make things different for us .. If you go to the lobby's signing in table I left another note . Good luck babe .. And I loved the speech you gave . It made my day I love you .

~ Shawn xxx

I smiled to myself and grabbed my phone and room key . I made my way down to the lobby and the lady gave me a note . " it's from shawn . " " thank you "

It read... " emily ? " I turned around to see no one other than ....

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Hey guys sorry for a shorter chapter than usual ... Left a little cliffhanger for you ... Try and guess I'm the comments who you think or want it to be ... I love you guys byes ~

SOPHIE XXX 💗🍕✨