So I have these four best friends and I listening to emotional songs so enjoy this strange chapter. Three of them I've never ever met, but they saved me. They keep saving me. Their names are Rebekah, Sebastian, Maddie and Kendall. Last night I was freaking out about Maddie. And when she answered but I was still shaking here's what he told me "Okay...its okay. Everything is okay. Focus on me and your breathing. Take five deep breaths in, then five out." I have never met this boy in my whole life. I only have one picture, of this boy, but somehow when he's miles away, he can calm me down. Then I have a other boy who always calls me queen, when he knows I'm not. And he always says #straightforruthie (he's gay FYI). Then Rebekah thinks I'm queen, and always treats me very sweet. She also thinks I'm queen and has always been very nice to me, and also I'm her baby duck. And then well Maddie, she's my best friend, but have never left my side once.
To Sebastian: I met you through my explore, and right away, you already treated me like a queen. By saying "are you ok my lady." It went from my lady to queen. So now all of your followers think I'm queen, when I don't believe it. But you always say when I send a dm "QUEEN ARE YOU OKAY I LOVE YOU." Like you always say that, and then one day, when I was talking about how much you're so sweet, you said Ruthie will you marry me. So I said yes, and well yes he's my fiancé. I love you very much Sebastian.
To Rebekah: I met you when you were on my feed, and I was saying how I don't like CS that much, and you were like "well whatever makes my Emma happy, makes me happy." I don't remember when I followed you sadly. But that's when we started talking I know that, and we were just got closer, I remember you not liking your name when you told me while I was like YOUR NAME IS FLAWLESS. But I will always think you're beautiful and you can't change my mind my love. Also, why you're my happiness and joy because you always make me smile with the paragraphs and videos. I should know this because it was recent. But you started calling me your baby duck, and I call you my mommy duck because you give me advice and tell me right from wrong. Rebekah, I'll always love you, and support you. You will get better and I'll help you the best I can. I love you very much.
To Kendall: well we didn't meet on Instagram my gay son. We met on shamchat. You were Ryan Ross I was fireball angel or something like that 😂. We just clicked. And I really wanted you to make a IG, so we could talk and you did, it was @/fuckingryanrossthough and just right away we both felt bad for each other. You always called me darling, you still do. I will always care and love you, because you did that from the start. Kendall, you make me have light in my heart. Idk how you do it, but you do. That's why you're my light. You always have given me light, even thought I've known you the very least. You still give me light and positive stuff. I love you very much.
To Maddie: I met you at school 😂. The first day. I had no friends in my grade, and I just hanged out with you and Maia. But I did think you were very annoying, well now you torture me with MCR. But boy, I told you stuff I never told a other living soul too. I guess I knew I could always trust you. You saw me for all good things, that I never knew was possible. Mads our friendship has to be the best but strangest in history. You always loved and cared for me. When I'd be worried about something you'd reassure me that they were fine. You would stay up till 10:00 PM just so I could FaceTime you, and we can talk about our day for the 3rd time of the day. I do think you force me to do more stuff. But that's because you really care. You are my angel because from the very start you loved me, (well not from the start) and I have too much evidence that shows you're a angel. I love you very much.
I love you all so much, and I promise I'll meet all of you guys, except you Mads, because we totally don't live in same state and city/town nooooo. But I love you all very much. ❤️❤️❤️. Never forget it guys.
