5sos Sad Imagines

Mikey Sad Imagine//xTRIGGER WARNINGx

Am I really fat? am I as ugly as they say I am? The hate tweets keep going on and on. ' ew why is Michael in 5sos anyway he's a rat and has no talent ', 'ew Michael Clifford is a rat', 'love how you fake depression Michael'. I mean I usually don't care what people say but I've been really self conscious lately. These are making it worse. I've been thinking of this for a long time and should I go through with it?. Y/n will be heartbroken..... she'll find someone better. Someone who treats her right. I think Its time. I go out to the lads and say my final goodbye not making it obvious what I'm about to do. "Hey lads, what's up". They were currently watching a movie and I isolate myself in my room. I talk with the boys for a while until I say I'm tired.... and I'm going to bed. We were currently in LA while y/n was at her house miles and miles away. I'm done talking to the boys and I go upstairs. I go into the bathroom.
1 pill, 2 pills, 3 pills.. I lock the door
6 pills, 7 pills, 8 pills.. I text y/n
Dear y/n,
I love you so fucking much. Never ever forget that princess. You make me so happy. But you're not with me.. and my happiness is miles and miles away. I cant do this anymore. I feel all alone. I'm not doing this cause of you y/n. You're the only reason I'm still here. I love you so much... but its getting too much. I love you y/n. Never forget that. I press send. I barely could type because of the tears blurring in my eyes.
9 pills, 10 pills, 11 pills, no one ever cared
12 pills, 13 pills, 14 pills, how many will it take for me to be gone.
15 pills, 16 pills, 17 pills, why am I still here?
18 pills, 19 pills, 20 pills..... I swallow them in two big gulps. I feel myself getting dizzy and my vision getting blurry. I go into the drawer and pull out my blade to end things once and for all. I roll up my sleeves to see fresh cuts. I trace over them drawing blood. I feel myself getting dizzier and dizzier. I make a few more clean cuts across my skin with the metal blade. I feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier. That moment I fell to the ground and my lights went out.

Y/n pov
I was laying on the couch when I got a text from Mikey. I read it and I realized what he was about to do. I was shaking barley able to call the boys. Right now I'm sobbing. My everything, my sunshine, my kitten was about to kill himself. I called the boys as soon as I read the message. It rings a few times then I hear calums voice. 'Y/n'? He said confused. 'CALUM MIKEY SENT ME A MESSAGE I THINK HE GONNA KILL HIMSELF.' Sobs raking through my body barley able to talk because of the lump in the back of my throat. 'OHOHH SHIT'. 'Y/n LET ME CALL YOU BACK" cal says obviously worried. 'OKAY' I said.

Cals pov

I hear y/n call me.... I hear what she's telling me and I can't believe it. I said I'd call her back and ran up to his room, the boys following. I opened the bedroom door and he wasn't in here. I ran to the bathroom and turned the knob. Its locked. I started to pound on the door. 'MIKEY OPEN THE DOOR' im on the verge of tears. Same with the boys. 'Move' ash peeps up. He knocks down the door and we see michael on the floor surrounded by his blood. We all ran to him and I screamed for someone to call 911. Luke dials the number. 'Cmon mikey no. Cmon buddy.' I check his pulse and I cant feel one. He's gone. He's really gone. I broke out in sobs. You hear luke say the ambulance is on their way. 'We need to call y/n' I say. 'We dont know if hes gone for sure' I hear ash sob. I was currently sobbing... we all are. Why mikey. Why? He was such a good guy. We hear the ambulance come in and they take his lifeless body and I see them putting him on the stretcher. Face so pale.... arms so bloody. They pronounced him dead later that night. Y/n will be heartbroken. I decide to call her and tell her the news. I press y/n's contact and I hear the phone ring. In less than the second ring I hear y/n speak.
Her voice was raspy. You could barely hear her. The first thing she asked was 'is he okay'? She's heartbroken. You can tell just by listening to her. I broke out in sobs. "Y/n mikeys gone.".... there was a moment of silence. Y/n broke out in sobs. I could hear her heart shatter into a million pieces. "Why mikey, calum? Why him?" She says sobbing. "I have no idea y/n... I wish I knew" my voice cracking. 'I gotta go' she said barley in a whisper. "Y/N DONT YOU DARE HURT YOURSELF CAUSE IF THIS" I knew what she was gonna do. Mikey was her world and now it's gone. She truly loved her. She was a bet but Mikey later on started to fall in love. Y/n hung up already and I pray she's not gonna hurt herself.
Y/n pov
after I hung up with cal I broke out in loud sobs. Why him? I kept repeating in my head. I realized he was the only thing keeping me alive. Hes the reason im still here. I realized that he was to busy with mine he forgot about his... I cant live without this boy. I run the my garage and get a rope. I wrote a note.
If he's gone I'm gone.
I brought the rope back inside and went to my room trying not to wake up my parents. Im in my room and I tie the rope to the ceiling fan. I grab my desk chair and I step on it. I grab the noose and put it around my neck. Im sobbing uncontrollably. Why him? Im still asking myself. I kicked my chair back and I was dangling from my fan. My sunshine, my world, my everything was gone. And now.... so was I

Well that was depressing. More imagines to come xoxo-rachael