It's about the twin boys

Part 1"It's just me"

My dear dairy day 167 "Self destruction is caused by many factors. It can be caused by thinking that your not good enough for this world. That your life doesn't matter . Maybe because you think everything you do, or things other people do, is your fault. You can feel alone, stressed out, sad or depressed just by thinking it's al wrong what you do in life. Maybe because your life doesn't look like the many famous instagramers or people who post allot on twitter how perfect there life's are. You can feel like your life hasn't started right yet. Depression is the worst kind of killer, it concerns you at night, or when you are alone and slowly eat away at any shred of happiness it can find until there is nothing left. But just remember one thing you can do everything. You can compleet everything. Just by trying hard and do you the best. You are a special person !! Who was created to be in a bigger plan. Don't let yourself down, pick your self up and make the best of it. Search for the good in life the good for your life the good in you and the good things around you. You can do great things by just doing it. X cam"

Cameron Dallas perspective

I felt alone this morning and sad, stressed out and kind of depressed. When I woke up and took my clothes of I felt sick about myself. I looked in the mirror and saw a boy with some pimpels stressed out looking eyes and face. I felt everybody hates me. I didn't felt like this like ever in my life.

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Cameron walked towards the bathroom and takes his boxers off, he threw them in the laundry basket. Walked in the shower and turned the tap for hot water, and felt if the water had the right temperature. His hand went over his body and down to his abs. The water was sliding down his chest and back. After the break down he felt a little warm again but the pain inside didn't get away as he thought it would be. He dropped down on the floor while the water was still running over his body. His hands went trough his hair. "Why am I feeling this way, what is happening to me" his face was in the palm of his hands and he started crying. He was mad at his life he was mad about himself about how he was handeling everything without doing what felt right. He let down his face and placed his arms around his knees. He was sitting in a fetus pose and looked down, sad and felt alone.

After almost 25 minutes he heard knocking on the door of the bathroom. "Cameron ......Cameron is everything alright......we have to go in about 10 minutes dude... we have to pick up the twins" That was his good friend Aaron. He is staying at his apartment for a few weeks now.

Cameron picked himself up, and closed the tap. He took the towel next to the sink and dried himself off. He looked down and felt his abs, in the mirror he saw a great body, but he didn't saw his body, but his soul. It was torn apart. And he couldn't handel it. "Fuck it" and he threw the towel in the corner. "Why...dude ...why" he opened the door and walked naked to his closet and took out a boxer a white t'shirt and some skinny jeans. "Come on Cameron... the car is already out side man" Aaron shouted from downstairs. " Come on dude put your mask up don't let them see what is going on" Cameron whispered to himself.

He walked down stairs and greeted his friend as always. "What took you so long man ...were you jerking of in the shower?" "wtf dude haha, come on lets get in the car. Those twins don't like waiting."