depression

I'm sitting here by the window in tears.

As I wipe the tear from my cheek I look at the ruffled bed ,the pieces of broken glass scattered all over the floor,the blood stains on the wooden floor.

It's been three weeks and I haven't moved from the chair by the window.

I haven't eaten or slept,I'm still trying to wrap my head around what took place...

Is this a dream?

..did I see your lifeless body leaving the house in a bag..?

.is your blood stained all over my body?

why would you leave me..you told me how much you loved me..you said you would never leave me...a fresh batch of tears came tumbling down my face as I remembered the soft kisses you use to leave all over my body...

WHERE ARE YOU?

I miss you ,I want to feel you body against mine...I want to see your face again...I want you now.

you lied to me ..why did you have to be so stupid...why didn't you stop when you said you would?

you mindled with angels of death and now you are gone..leaving me to mourn ....transforming me from a happily married woman to a uncontrollable sobbing widow .

I love you but I hate you ....and I will never forgive you for leaving me..