its happened once before.
and i was left with feelings i've never had before.
i felt taken at toll, then left by an empty soul.
i remember once upon a time, when i was whole.
it was before you came along,
with all the charm,
with all the lies leaving your mouth and heading straight into my eyes.
after that i had tried to speak,
but i was no longer me.
i lost that function for forever it seemed.
Joy was torn from my throat,
almost like a scream.
i strayed to let another person in.
but eventually i did.
however,
i do not spin for him, like i have once for you.
i'm scared to be too happy, even knowing his intentions are true.
i want to spin for him, like the earth does but you've enabled me too.
because you pulled a hit and run and left me with questions that no one has the answers too.
like what if the puzzle piece dont fit perfectly, if this was never really meant to be?
what if we collide? and our insides can't decide?
or what if we boil, at different degrees?
what if eventually, this love i have for him,
he'll no longer will have for me?
i know that this is crazy but i'm asking for just a small guarantee,
that maybe, my heart can repair
and get back to its original settings.
maybe then, i could really love again,
and finally let him this great guy in.
